Funny, how everyone wants to be different; yet, they're all the same?
It's all about compartmentalising us into cliques, and cadres, in the name of 'counterculture'.
Zoom meetings are inundated with 'different' ones who all have dyed hair, Timmy Mallet-style glasses, hark on about their 'Narcissist' Father/Mother and want to become Actors.
We all had BS childhoods. Lose the Drama.
I think my place in the pack is wherever the rest aren’t congregating, I have known it in the past that a certain few people tend to congregate around me, but I always resist that kind of metastasis..
I dunno though, maybe I am sub-human in that regard, those kids certainly seemed to think so..
I guess I just like to keep my options open, I’ve never taken well to demands for loyalty, but I think my point runs deeper than that. I think that people can tell that, even in my contrarian moments, I still am not grasping the unwritten rules..
I remember my mother telling me once that she had observed me at a children’s party when I was about five. She said that it was clear that I wasn’t responding appropriately to a game of ‘musical chairs’.
She said that I was poorly-adhering to the rules of the game, I was hyper-focusing on getting to the chair, to the point where I didn’t realise that all of the other children were rooting-against me and booing me.
She said that she felt really-bad on my behalf, and that the other parents weren’t rooting for me either, I just wasn’t grasping the pack-mentality.
I ended up winning the game and my mother shouted in cheer over the other parents, I heard her and was ecstatic at her novel gesture, oblivious to why she was acting differently.
So I think ultimately that I can be a contrarian actively, but sometimes I am being a contrarian as a result of hyper-focusing on my point, and not on the balance of a given social interaction..
