A Bit Of Fun

I've just worked out the actual definition of insanity. Trying to tell yourself a knock knock joke.

I'd be waiting hours for someone to ask who's there.

Who's there? 

Please be kind to yourself! It takes time to figure out who you are. I'm still working on it.

I have a friend, though I do think it's unfair to burden him, and I try not too, not always successfully. 

Do you have anyone to talk to about this, P?

Xxx

Thank goodness. x

My escape plan is on hold for the time being.

I'm trying to figure out who I am. It's not easy, and too often I consider ending things to escape to overwhelm.

Same! 

We became too good at it, I actually forgot who I am, I was massively angry with myself for not seeing that I’m autistic.

They don't know why I'm different, I'm not allowed to tell them. So I just keep trying to hide myself, be all awkward and add to the weird. It is what it is. Though my mental health isn't quite so uerstanding

Urghh. I hope they're fired, P.

I'm laughed out and left out. I can spend a day not being spoken to by one the staff. Just weird little me.

I was told that my thought processes and coping mechanisms strongly indicated autism. That's why I got assessed. Honestly,  how can you be compared to an autistic child, that's ludicrous. And we become masters of masking. It's just unfortunate the damage it does as a consequence. 

Roy said:

I was too quiet and kept my head down.

That was me too, at home and at school. My sister also took up my parents' attention (for different reasons).

Completely agree.

Im the weird one at work, I get laughed at.

It was just the, you don’t act like an autistic child, no I’m 54 and had to mask the hell out of it. My sister was quite unwell as a child and often in hospital, most of my parents time was rightly given to her, I just slipped through the net. I was too quiet and kept my head down.

Working with adults anywhere is the hard part!

What did she say?

I found out I was autistic not long after I was promoted to SENCO, that really messed with my head. I had no idea I could possibly be autistic. I just loved the bond I made with autistic children and how we communicated with each other.

What did she say?

I found out I was autistic not long after I was promoted to SENCO, that really messed with my head. I had no idea I could possibly be autistic. I just loved the bond I made with autistic children and how we communicated with each other.