I am and always have been, although "home" was my bedroom when I was a child and where I would quite happily have stayed all the time if other people did not make me come out. I still love to close my bedroom door behind me and dive onto my bed and pull the duvet around me, it is my "safe" place.
It is causing me a lot of problems at the moment though as I am finding it harder and harder to leave the house, which society requires us to do. (I am trying to seek help for this.) It also causes a LOT of friction with the person who I live with, who does not share my sheer contentment of just pottering around doing my own thing. His frustration at me is making my anxiety about going anywhere even worse and it stops me from being able to enjoy being at home.
In an ideal world, I would have a little home, somewhere quiet, and surrounded by nature that I was allowed to walk on without fear of reproach. There would be a stream, a forest, a hill and a lake... and there would be no roads with traffic on or other people to contend with and I would be free to stay at home or roam around unhindered outside in nature when I chose to.
Sorry to hear the person you live with is making you feel like that.
Your ideal world sounds lovely, that is my dream too. I often dream of a little cottage in the Swiss alps with a little bit of farmland and a few animals and no one knows where it is apart from the few people I choose to tell
That's amazing, I used to dream of exactly the same thing - including the part of having a little bit of farmland and a few animals! I even started learning German at A-Level with a view to one day accomplishing this. (I did not complete it as my difficulties overwhelmed me at that point in my life.)
That's amazing, I used to dream of exactly the same thing - including the part of having a little bit of farmland and a few animals! I even started learning German at A-Level with a view to one day accomplishing this. (I did not complete it as my difficulties overwhelmed me at that point in my life.)
