Whose a Home bird?

I am and always have been, although "home" was my bedroom when I was a child and where I would quite happily have stayed all the time if other people did not make me come out. I still love to close my bedroom door behind me and dive onto my bed and pull the duvet around me, it is my "safe" place.

It is causing me a lot of problems at the moment though as I am finding it harder and harder to leave the house, which society requires us to do. (I am trying to seek help for this.) It also causes a LOT of friction with the person who I live with, who does not share my sheer contentment of just pottering around doing my own thing. His frustration at me is making my anxiety about going anywhere even worse and it stops me from being able to enjoy being at home.

In an ideal world, I would have a little home, somewhere quiet, and surrounded by nature that I was allowed to walk on without fear of reproach. There would be a stream, a forest, a hill and a lake... and there would be no roads with traffic on or other people to contend with and I would be free to stay at home or roam around unhindered outside in nature when I chose to. 

I am and always have been, although "home" was my bedroom when I was a child and where I would quite happily have stayed all the time if other people did not make me come out. I still love to close my bedroom door behind me and dive onto my bed and pull the duvet around me, it is my "safe" place.

It is causing me a lot of problems at the moment though as I am finding it harder and harder to leave the house, which society requires us to do. (I am trying to seek help for this.) It also causes a LOT of friction with the person who I live with, who does not share my sheer contentment of just pottering around doing my own thing. His frustration at me is making my anxiety about going anywhere even worse and it stops me from being able to enjoy being at home.

In an ideal world, I would have a little home, somewhere quiet, and surrounded by nature that I was allowed to walk on without fear of reproach. There would be a stream, a forest, a hill and a lake... and there would be no roads with traffic on or other people to contend with and I would be free to stay at home or roam around unhindered outside in nature when I chose to. 

That sounds like my dream too!. An isolated cottage where I could have access to nature from the door and no neighbours to annoy me every time I step outside.

I stay at home most of the time and that suits me and my lifestyle. However I also love getting out into nature for walks. That is essential for my physical and mental health.

I find it difficult to go out due to anxiety and the sensory overload of the outside world. Once I'm out in the open fields away from everything I'm fine, but getting there can be an ordeal in itself. I have to battle with the neighbours yapping dogs, traffic noise, constant bleeping from a nearby new build housing development and walk past the local pub and school. I actually live in a relatively quiet village and can't imagine how difficult it must be for autistic people who live in towns and cities.

Whilst I love being at home most of the time, if I don't manage to get out for a few weeks it gets to me. I start feeling trapped and pacing around the house like a caged animal. As you say the longer this goes on the harder it is to leave the house.

Try not to be so concerned with what society expects. It's what's best for you that is most important. I hope that you manage to resolve things with the person you live with. That sounds like a very unpleasant situation to be in.

Sorry to hear the person you live with is making you feel like that.

Your ideal world sounds lovely, that is my dream too. I often dream of a little cottage in the Swiss alps with a little bit of farmland and a few animals and no one knows where it is apart from the few people I choose to tell