How do you find your happiness

Good question. Visiting my mums grave and talking things through with her really helps me. It gets things off my chest. Talking helps so many people. I call Samaritans as well sometimes and that helps a lot, just being heard and listened to. But talking to mum is the biggest help, she was and still is my rock.

I wish i knew the answer to that, i can't really remember the last time i was was truly happy. There are so many jobs that need doing around the house, even simple cleaning up, and yet more and more i'm spending time just sitting on the couch, wishing i had someone to talk to. Someone other than the bus driver or checkout girl at Tesco, to say good morning to.

If only i could go back in time and live my life again, knowing what i know nowm i'd do things so differently.

I feel you. Talking to my mum helps me when I'm in a dark place but it doesn't fix the problem. I've not found a solution yet. Still looking. Since I got sick it's worse and like you I find myself sitting at home, lacking the energy and drive to do things. Like I should really do some cleaning but at the moment I'm just sat down typing this and browsing the web. Sending you hugs I hope things get better for you :) 

If I could go back I'd definitely do things differently as well.

I feel you. Talking to my mum helps me when I'm in a dark place but it doesn't fix the problem. I've not found a solution yet. Still looking. Since I got sick it's worse and like you I find myself sitting at home, lacking the energy and drive to do things. Like I should really do some cleaning but at the moment I'm just sat down typing this and browsing the web. Sending you hugs I hope things get better for you :) 

If I could go back I'd definitely do things differently as well.

I can relate to you and Cullpepper... the lack of energy and motivation, and a feeling that if I could go back in time (knowing what I now know), I probably would have done things differently.