i'm torn apart

yesterday we went out. It was abetter idea than being trapped at home again with ateenage girl desperate to do. Bad , bad choice. She was rude foul mouthed and aggresive. Or she was distraught and sobbing. My partner is now leaving because I let myself be ditacted too by a child. she hates him and me because I do what he wants. I try to please everyone and I dont who who I am anymore.

I do know I am soon going to be on my own. I am facing losing our house. The future beckons, the kids gone. My son, daughter will be adults as well equipped for the world as I could do.She will survive. she is strong. I dont know if I will. 15 years living with Aspergers has taken its toll.

An alcoholic ex. a 16 yr old son who spends as much time away from us as he can, a partner leaving. Friends that have disappeared along the way.

My future lies ahead. I cant see anything except lonliness, more of the desolute lonliness i live with every day.

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  • Hi too everyone above , this is my very first time in the community an reading the forums makes me feel like their alot of flies on my wall in my house lol .

    Too reply to Smurfette totally understand how you feel i have son 14 with these characteristics daily , i do feel myself when he in a good mood you allow yourself to forget the day before when they where tearing their bedroom apart or threatning too leave home , refusing too take meds , completely defying everything you ask of them. But as Mandie said like her son has those same qualities of being very humorous & quirky makes you feel like theirs a slight sence of normality lol ...

    Totally agree with the school term holidays we had a meeting with J's tutor, LEA, careers advisor etcetc last wk and i raised this as my time too breakdown an wear PJ's all week .... which we had a laugh about but its SO SO SO  draining and has a massive health impact on myself  but also the family home and its ran through J .

    Hope you ave found a little comfort in that reply as well as me writing it ..... TC x

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  • Hi too everyone above , this is my very first time in the community an reading the forums makes me feel like their alot of flies on my wall in my house lol .

    Too reply to Smurfette totally understand how you feel i have son 14 with these characteristics daily , i do feel myself when he in a good mood you allow yourself to forget the day before when they where tearing their bedroom apart or threatning too leave home , refusing too take meds , completely defying everything you ask of them. But as Mandie said like her son has those same qualities of being very humorous & quirky makes you feel like theirs a slight sence of normality lol ...

    Totally agree with the school term holidays we had a meeting with J's tutor, LEA, careers advisor etcetc last wk and i raised this as my time too breakdown an wear PJ's all week .... which we had a laugh about but its SO SO SO  draining and has a massive health impact on myself  but also the family home and its ran through J .

    Hope you ave found a little comfort in that reply as well as me writing it ..... TC x

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