yesterday we went out. It was abetter idea than being trapped at home again with ateenage girl desperate to do. Bad , bad choice. She was rude foul mouthed and aggresive. Or she was distraught and sobbing. My partner is now leaving because I let myself be ditacted too by a child. she hates him and me because I do what he wants. I try to please everyone and I dont who who I am anymore.
I do know I am soon going to be on my own. I am facing losing our house. The future beckons, the kids gone. My son, daughter will be adults as well equipped for the world as I could do.She will survive. she is strong. I dont know if I will. 15 years living with Aspergers has taken its toll.
An alcoholic ex. a 16 yr old son who spends as much time away from us as he can, a partner leaving. Friends that have disappeared along the way.
My future lies ahead. I cant see anything except lonliness, more of the desolute lonliness i live with every day.
