i'm torn apart

yesterday we went out. It was abetter idea than being trapped at home again with ateenage girl desperate to do. Bad , bad choice. She was rude foul mouthed and aggresive. Or she was distraught and sobbing. My partner is now leaving because I let myself be ditacted too by a child. she hates him and me because I do what he wants. I try to please everyone and I dont who who I am anymore.

I do know I am soon going to be on my own. I am facing losing our house. The future beckons, the kids gone. My son, daughter will be adults as well equipped for the world as I could do.She will survive. she is strong. I dont know if I will. 15 years living with Aspergers has taken its toll.

An alcoholic ex. a 16 yr old son who spends as much time away from us as he can, a partner leaving. Friends that have disappeared along the way.

My future lies ahead. I cant see anything except lonliness, more of the desolute lonliness i live with every day.

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  • Thanks Princessahara,Mandy and Colin.  Feeling better today. School is back so she is back into a familiar routine. Partner has calmed down also and isn't going anywhere, until the next time!  Down time is always hard and all the holidays this month created a real problem. We are back to our usual routines so things have settled fairly quickly.

    balancing keeping her safe, letting her be a 15 year old teenager, keeping her occupied and not spending too much!..............Its a juggling act that sometimes I cant keep up with.

    Its really good being able to put down how I feel and know there are people that understand, really understand what I am going through.

    Thank you everyone.  

     

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  • Thanks Princessahara,Mandy and Colin.  Feeling better today. School is back so she is back into a familiar routine. Partner has calmed down also and isn't going anywhere, until the next time!  Down time is always hard and all the holidays this month created a real problem. We are back to our usual routines so things have settled fairly quickly.

    balancing keeping her safe, letting her be a 15 year old teenager, keeping her occupied and not spending too much!..............Its a juggling act that sometimes I cant keep up with.

    Its really good being able to put down how I feel and know there are people that understand, really understand what I am going through.

    Thank you everyone.  

     

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