Anyone Like Me Here ?

I want to talk to someone like me - maybe it will be a good kind of therapy or help, I'm not sure, but I feel a bit alone in that I think nobody can really understand whats going on in my mind unless the same thing is going on in theirs !!

Firstly -and probably the main thing is noise - I wish people would try to be quieter, stop banging, shouting, screaming, playing music especially with bass, also sudden noise or repetitive noise I just want to get away from. I have diagnosed severe hyperacusis.

Next is hygiene - but only obsessively when it comes to food preparation and eating. Before using any dish, cup or crockery item I rinse them in boiling hot water and I am always washing my hands and conscious of touching things which means that I can not touch any food unless I wash my hands again. (you should see me make a sandwich !!!) If I go out to eat then there will probably be some ridiculous scenario regarding something not being cooked or dirty crockery - I often order a cup of tea just to dip the crockery in to make sure its got no germs on !

Also I will only eat hot cooked food unless prepared by myself. I worry about catching something because I know the person who has prepared the food might not care about hygiene so much, I would never eat anything like a salad outside, some of these kitchens use the same chopping board for everything etc...

Also I am so aware of catching a bug or flu - I hate it when I get on a bus/tube etc and someone is coughing and sneezing, I have to get off. If someone I know (and thats only a handful of people) has got flu or a cold or even a slight sniffle I don't want to see them or be in the same room as them.

Also I cannot stand people who live with pets - like a cat or dog, I can't understand how these people allow pets to walk outside then inside and all over the carpet an furniture, slobber, hairs etc...I love animals but they belong in the wild.

Another thing is morals and ethics, mine are very strong, I cannot stand any kind of injustice or wrongdoing and I am always quick to spot it.

I am also a genius, but very flawed. I can write beautiful words but find them hard to speak if I am not relaxed in the company.

I also have a thing about fat people, although I wouldnt say I was skinny myself. I just get irritated when I see a fat person because I really for the life of me don't understand how they could allow their body to get into that state. Despite all the excuses they make it's a simple mathematical equation of too much intake of calories.

And finally I can't stand foreign accents or language, I have to get away from anyone speaking them, I don't know exactly why, I think it's because my brain can't deciper it yet when it's in front of me I feel like I am being forced to listen to it so I have to get away.

Anyone else here have any similar thinking or behaviours ???

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  • Hi Hope,

    yes I know exactly what you mean about certain breeds ! I cross over if I see one coming, if one gets on the bus/tube then I get off. I know a lot of people get joy and happiness from a pet and I can see why, but at the same time see all the negatives hugely overriding any positives.

    I see all these behaviours as some kind of blight on my life but I know as most people don't have them then obviously they are my problem - but at the same time it doesn't help the problem go away because I can't change my behaviour because it is there for what I assume is a logical reason - eg I dont want to catch germs, I don't want to get bitten by a dog etc... but the thing is all these behaviours are based on a tiny chance of something happening - its like worrying about flying because the plane might crash but in reality there are million of flights a year and only a handful of crashes. I want to control my behaviour but can't stop it. I'm 45 this week and just getting tired of it all as it seems to get worse as I get older, I didnt really start the hygiene thing until about 7 years ago, so its like I am becoming worse as I get older.

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  • Hi Hope,

    yes I know exactly what you mean about certain breeds ! I cross over if I see one coming, if one gets on the bus/tube then I get off. I know a lot of people get joy and happiness from a pet and I can see why, but at the same time see all the negatives hugely overriding any positives.

    I see all these behaviours as some kind of blight on my life but I know as most people don't have them then obviously they are my problem - but at the same time it doesn't help the problem go away because I can't change my behaviour because it is there for what I assume is a logical reason - eg I dont want to catch germs, I don't want to get bitten by a dog etc... but the thing is all these behaviours are based on a tiny chance of something happening - its like worrying about flying because the plane might crash but in reality there are million of flights a year and only a handful of crashes. I want to control my behaviour but can't stop it. I'm 45 this week and just getting tired of it all as it seems to get worse as I get older, I didnt really start the hygiene thing until about 7 years ago, so its like I am becoming worse as I get older.

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