Anyone Like Me Here ?

I want to talk to someone like me - maybe it will be a good kind of therapy or help, I'm not sure, but I feel a bit alone in that I think nobody can really understand whats going on in my mind unless the same thing is going on in theirs !!

Firstly -and probably the main thing is noise - I wish people would try to be quieter, stop banging, shouting, screaming, playing music especially with bass, also sudden noise or repetitive noise I just want to get away from. I have diagnosed severe hyperacusis.

Next is hygiene - but only obsessively when it comes to food preparation and eating. Before using any dish, cup or crockery item I rinse them in boiling hot water and I am always washing my hands and conscious of touching things which means that I can not touch any food unless I wash my hands again. (you should see me make a sandwich !!!) If I go out to eat then there will probably be some ridiculous scenario regarding something not being cooked or dirty crockery - I often order a cup of tea just to dip the crockery in to make sure its got no germs on !

Also I will only eat hot cooked food unless prepared by myself. I worry about catching something because I know the person who has prepared the food might not care about hygiene so much, I would never eat anything like a salad outside, some of these kitchens use the same chopping board for everything etc...

Also I am so aware of catching a bug or flu - I hate it when I get on a bus/tube etc and someone is coughing and sneezing, I have to get off. If someone I know (and thats only a handful of people) has got flu or a cold or even a slight sniffle I don't want to see them or be in the same room as them.

Also I cannot stand people who live with pets - like a cat or dog, I can't understand how these people allow pets to walk outside then inside and all over the carpet an furniture, slobber, hairs etc...I love animals but they belong in the wild.

Another thing is morals and ethics, mine are very strong, I cannot stand any kind of injustice or wrongdoing and I am always quick to spot it.

I am also a genius, but very flawed. I can write beautiful words but find them hard to speak if I am not relaxed in the company.

I also have a thing about fat people, although I wouldnt say I was skinny myself. I just get irritated when I see a fat person because I really for the life of me don't understand how they could allow their body to get into that state. Despite all the excuses they make it's a simple mathematical equation of too much intake of calories.

And finally I can't stand foreign accents or language, I have to get away from anyone speaking them, I don't know exactly why, I think it's because my brain can't deciper it yet when it's in front of me I feel like I am being forced to listen to it so I have to get away.

Anyone else here have any similar thinking or behaviours ???

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  • I'm with all of you on many things and thank you for posting that Paull. Personally I take the middle line with hygene - sterilisation of everything in my view is not healthy and likewise bugs are not always so bad. Read somewhere once that kids don't eat enough dirt nowadays to be healthy and I can see the logic in that. Hate chemical cleaning stuff too.And strong smells like purfume - they "hurt" me. Noise is a big problem - that "hurts" me also. Dogs are not liked by everyone but my own are a huge and beneficial part of my life. They love me unconditionally for a start and I'm yet to find a human able to do that. They provide me with a "no excuses" reason to get out into the big scary world every day - without them I could quite easily be housebound. They work with and for me, as sheepdogs, I wouldn't be much of a shepherd without them. They are so tuned into my mental health it is spooky - observation of their behaviour is a big indicator of how I am. I find them so much healthier to have in the house than humans and a whole lot more sociable too! I do not treat them as humans  simply because they are not - they are dogs and I have learned a lot from them, not least their gift of acceptance which is something I wish more people had...Smile

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  • I'm with all of you on many things and thank you for posting that Paull. Personally I take the middle line with hygene - sterilisation of everything in my view is not healthy and likewise bugs are not always so bad. Read somewhere once that kids don't eat enough dirt nowadays to be healthy and I can see the logic in that. Hate chemical cleaning stuff too.And strong smells like purfume - they "hurt" me. Noise is a big problem - that "hurts" me also. Dogs are not liked by everyone but my own are a huge and beneficial part of my life. They love me unconditionally for a start and I'm yet to find a human able to do that. They provide me with a "no excuses" reason to get out into the big scary world every day - without them I could quite easily be housebound. They work with and for me, as sheepdogs, I wouldn't be much of a shepherd without them. They are so tuned into my mental health it is spooky - observation of their behaviour is a big indicator of how I am. I find them so much healthier to have in the house than humans and a whole lot more sociable too! I do not treat them as humans  simply because they are not - they are dogs and I have learned a lot from them, not least their gift of acceptance which is something I wish more people had...Smile

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