Anyone Like Me Here ?

I want to talk to someone like me - maybe it will be a good kind of therapy or help, I'm not sure, but I feel a bit alone in that I think nobody can really understand whats going on in my mind unless the same thing is going on in theirs !!

Firstly -and probably the main thing is noise - I wish people would try to be quieter, stop banging, shouting, screaming, playing music especially with bass, also sudden noise or repetitive noise I just want to get away from. I have diagnosed severe hyperacusis.

Next is hygiene - but only obsessively when it comes to food preparation and eating. Before using any dish, cup or crockery item I rinse them in boiling hot water and I am always washing my hands and conscious of touching things which means that I can not touch any food unless I wash my hands again. (you should see me make a sandwich !!!) If I go out to eat then there will probably be some ridiculous scenario regarding something not being cooked or dirty crockery - I often order a cup of tea just to dip the crockery in to make sure its got no germs on !

Also I will only eat hot cooked food unless prepared by myself. I worry about catching something because I know the person who has prepared the food might not care about hygiene so much, I would never eat anything like a salad outside, some of these kitchens use the same chopping board for everything etc...

Also I am so aware of catching a bug or flu - I hate it when I get on a bus/tube etc and someone is coughing and sneezing, I have to get off. If someone I know (and thats only a handful of people) has got flu or a cold or even a slight sniffle I don't want to see them or be in the same room as them.

Also I cannot stand people who live with pets - like a cat or dog, I can't understand how these people allow pets to walk outside then inside and all over the carpet an furniture, slobber, hairs etc...I love animals but they belong in the wild.

Another thing is morals and ethics, mine are very strong, I cannot stand any kind of injustice or wrongdoing and I am always quick to spot it.

I am also a genius, but very flawed. I can write beautiful words but find them hard to speak if I am not relaxed in the company.

I also have a thing about fat people, although I wouldnt say I was skinny myself. I just get irritated when I see a fat person because I really for the life of me don't understand how they could allow their body to get into that state. Despite all the excuses they make it's a simple mathematical equation of too much intake of calories.

And finally I can't stand foreign accents or language, I have to get away from anyone speaking them, I don't know exactly why, I think it's because my brain can't deciper it yet when it's in front of me I feel like I am being forced to listen to it so I have to get away.

Anyone else here have any similar thinking or behaviours ???

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  • Wow Paull! You must be my shadow, for I can relate to all  of this, apart from the bit about fat people, although I do get annoyed about similar things.

    I am a hygiene obsessive, to the point of OCD. If I touch a flannel in the kitchen, I rinse my hands for ages under hot soapy water, to get rid of any bacteria that the sponge might be harbouring. I also have to wash my hands after unplugging the sink. I can't touch raw meat, either.

    My mum is the only person, other than myself, who can prepare my food, and I always make sure she washes her hands and washes the vegetables. I have to rinse vegetable in hot water, particularly salad ingredients.

    If someone has a cough or sneezes, I have to excuse myself, and I feel really anxious until I am out of the situation. Then I worry that I might catch their disease. Some people are disgusting with their hygiene: they don't put their hand over their mouth when they cough/sneeze, for example.

    I can only eat at cafes that that a 5 hygiene rating (the highest level), and I tend to eat at one cafe that I know is hygienic - if the toilets are clean, the kitchen is usually clean!.

    Noise: why are people so loud? You get drunken students shouting out obscenities near my flat, a neighbour who thinks it is acceptable to play loud music at 6am, noisy car engines and honking horns...

    Language: Some words irritate me a lot, particularly if they are repeated. I hate the word 'bless', for example. Some people use it all the time, even after talking about something that is far from sweet or cute. When I was talking about violent prisoners, for example, this person said 'bless them'!. I am a language pedant, and hate slippery, vacuous speech. I also hate sentimentality and sugar coating. Some accents irritate me, too.

    Smells: cigarette smoke, hand cream, clinical smells, strong perfume, makes me feel very tense.

    I have strong morals, too.

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  • Wow Paull! You must be my shadow, for I can relate to all  of this, apart from the bit about fat people, although I do get annoyed about similar things.

    I am a hygiene obsessive, to the point of OCD. If I touch a flannel in the kitchen, I rinse my hands for ages under hot soapy water, to get rid of any bacteria that the sponge might be harbouring. I also have to wash my hands after unplugging the sink. I can't touch raw meat, either.

    My mum is the only person, other than myself, who can prepare my food, and I always make sure she washes her hands and washes the vegetables. I have to rinse vegetable in hot water, particularly salad ingredients.

    If someone has a cough or sneezes, I have to excuse myself, and I feel really anxious until I am out of the situation. Then I worry that I might catch their disease. Some people are disgusting with their hygiene: they don't put their hand over their mouth when they cough/sneeze, for example.

    I can only eat at cafes that that a 5 hygiene rating (the highest level), and I tend to eat at one cafe that I know is hygienic - if the toilets are clean, the kitchen is usually clean!.

    Noise: why are people so loud? You get drunken students shouting out obscenities near my flat, a neighbour who thinks it is acceptable to play loud music at 6am, noisy car engines and honking horns...

    Language: Some words irritate me a lot, particularly if they are repeated. I hate the word 'bless', for example. Some people use it all the time, even after talking about something that is far from sweet or cute. When I was talking about violent prisoners, for example, this person said 'bless them'!. I am a language pedant, and hate slippery, vacuous speech. I also hate sentimentality and sugar coating. Some accents irritate me, too.

    Smells: cigarette smoke, hand cream, clinical smells, strong perfume, makes me feel very tense.

    I have strong morals, too.

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