Anyone Like Me Here ?

I want to talk to someone like me - maybe it will be a good kind of therapy or help, I'm not sure, but I feel a bit alone in that I think nobody can really understand whats going on in my mind unless the same thing is going on in theirs !!

Firstly -and probably the main thing is noise - I wish people would try to be quieter, stop banging, shouting, screaming, playing music especially with bass, also sudden noise or repetitive noise I just want to get away from. I have diagnosed severe hyperacusis.

Next is hygiene - but only obsessively when it comes to food preparation and eating. Before using any dish, cup or crockery item I rinse them in boiling hot water and I am always washing my hands and conscious of touching things which means that I can not touch any food unless I wash my hands again. (you should see me make a sandwich !!!) If I go out to eat then there will probably be some ridiculous scenario regarding something not being cooked or dirty crockery - I often order a cup of tea just to dip the crockery in to make sure its got no germs on !

Also I will only eat hot cooked food unless prepared by myself. I worry about catching something because I know the person who has prepared the food might not care about hygiene so much, I would never eat anything like a salad outside, some of these kitchens use the same chopping board for everything etc...

Also I am so aware of catching a bug or flu - I hate it when I get on a bus/tube etc and someone is coughing and sneezing, I have to get off. If someone I know (and thats only a handful of people) has got flu or a cold or even a slight sniffle I don't want to see them or be in the same room as them.

Also I cannot stand people who live with pets - like a cat or dog, I can't understand how these people allow pets to walk outside then inside and all over the carpet an furniture, slobber, hairs etc...I love animals but they belong in the wild.

Another thing is morals and ethics, mine are very strong, I cannot stand any kind of injustice or wrongdoing and I am always quick to spot it.

I am also a genius, but very flawed. I can write beautiful words but find them hard to speak if I am not relaxed in the company.

I also have a thing about fat people, although I wouldnt say I was skinny myself. I just get irritated when I see a fat person because I really for the life of me don't understand how they could allow their body to get into that state. Despite all the excuses they make it's a simple mathematical equation of too much intake of calories.

And finally I can't stand foreign accents or language, I have to get away from anyone speaking them, I don't know exactly why, I think it's because my brain can't deciper it yet when it's in front of me I feel like I am being forced to listen to it so I have to get away.

Anyone else here have any similar thinking or behaviours ???

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  • Hi Paull,

    I have noise sensitives, loud bangs, white noise, general overload.

    Hygience, I am probably the opposite with personal hygience, I am clean but not dirty. I do the old rinse the cup and teaspoon with boiling water act. But I hate chemical cleaning sprays and air freshers,,, I believe having a biobacterial world in your environment is good for your health long-term, like gardening so dirt is my friend. Bugs and germs have to live it is there world also. I hope I make good compost one day.

    The cat/dog thing does effect me also, especially as people treat them like humans. But this is normal to members of my familiy who have a cat and a dog. The animals are all right, but I would feel more comfortable with them outside in the garden.

    Ethics,, don't go there Wink it is like world is wired to another set of rules, whilst saying these are the rules you must follow, so my ethics are probably rigid thinking due to my autism mindset. I wish, I could park on double yellow lines, play loud music in home, fight, scream and shout without regard to others, a selfish life seems to be rewarded in our society.

    Overthinking as well, modelling behaviours and frameworks , theories on everything, correlating a single muse on a million angles, good for an analyst job, but hellish for day to day communication. As my doctors says, MIND GAIN brings PAIN.

    The fat thing is a judgemental thing for you, but probably more to do with logic and rational not offence judgement. I have the same with people who smoke, take drugs, drink alcohol, watch crowd sports,, it actually scares me,, mass behaviours.. of others. But I am just scared of the humanrace, especially groups or gangs, be it on the street corner or a political willed boardroom. Individually, I really like peer to peer relationship, the true open person.

    I love foreign languages, they are at a slower mind pace for me when speaking. I seem to collect foriegn friends, I have asked them why this is so,, they say I have more open higher intelligence so I am really interested in cultures. They say the common british person culturally dumb but there is vein in britain which is not so. I love the french accent, german is nice on ear and jewish accent is cool. It is a shame that I can not travel, I find the british normally to be coof, locked into an isolation mindset of egotistical culture in lieu of an actual cultural per say which is based on gimicks.

    Good post Paull, made me reflect Smile, outwith your negative bias thoughts what are your positive likes.

     

     

     

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  • Hi Paull,

    I have noise sensitives, loud bangs, white noise, general overload.

    Hygience, I am probably the opposite with personal hygience, I am clean but not dirty. I do the old rinse the cup and teaspoon with boiling water act. But I hate chemical cleaning sprays and air freshers,,, I believe having a biobacterial world in your environment is good for your health long-term, like gardening so dirt is my friend. Bugs and germs have to live it is there world also. I hope I make good compost one day.

    The cat/dog thing does effect me also, especially as people treat them like humans. But this is normal to members of my familiy who have a cat and a dog. The animals are all right, but I would feel more comfortable with them outside in the garden.

    Ethics,, don't go there Wink it is like world is wired to another set of rules, whilst saying these are the rules you must follow, so my ethics are probably rigid thinking due to my autism mindset. I wish, I could park on double yellow lines, play loud music in home, fight, scream and shout without regard to others, a selfish life seems to be rewarded in our society.

    Overthinking as well, modelling behaviours and frameworks , theories on everything, correlating a single muse on a million angles, good for an analyst job, but hellish for day to day communication. As my doctors says, MIND GAIN brings PAIN.

    The fat thing is a judgemental thing for you, but probably more to do with logic and rational not offence judgement. I have the same with people who smoke, take drugs, drink alcohol, watch crowd sports,, it actually scares me,, mass behaviours.. of others. But I am just scared of the humanrace, especially groups or gangs, be it on the street corner or a political willed boardroom. Individually, I really like peer to peer relationship, the true open person.

    I love foreign languages, they are at a slower mind pace for me when speaking. I seem to collect foriegn friends, I have asked them why this is so,, they say I have more open higher intelligence so I am really interested in cultures. They say the common british person culturally dumb but there is vein in britain which is not so. I love the french accent, german is nice on ear and jewish accent is cool. It is a shame that I can not travel, I find the british normally to be coof, locked into an isolation mindset of egotistical culture in lieu of an actual cultural per say which is based on gimicks.

    Good post Paull, made me reflect Smile, outwith your negative bias thoughts what are your positive likes.

     

     

     

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