New face

Hi Im new to this site and only discovered it while looking on you tube.  I have a beautiful boy who is 2yrs and 10mths.  He is currently being assessed ongoing.   He has speech and language impairment (no speech) and developmental delay.  Hes awaiting an MRI scan (1 yrs waiting list).  Basically I am waiting to be told he has Autism.  Its been almost a year now since his first assessment but its been the longest year of my life.  I have battled depression, guilt and even suicidal thoughts.  Just would like to hear some friendly faces and know that Im not alone.  Thanks for listening, I could go on for ages but think its nearly bedtime.