Can I ask for a bit of advice.
My brother asked me to drop him at a garage to look at a car.
The request freaked me, straight away. All of a sudden my life had been stolen and I was not in control. For my autistic mind, it was a step from known land into no mans land.
My brother knew I was freaking out, so said to me, I'll met you at the park first,, you know that. That help a bit because I know the park area, and it is half way to the garage.
I was still stressed when I met him, but under this directions I got to the garage, although I did know how to get there, him talking through the directions as I drove helped me relax. When I got to the garage, I had to get out of the car and walk about due to the stress of waiting for him to return. My bowels started to go and I was freaking out about what if I need the toilet. When he returned I drove back to know land from no mans land and I was fine after half a hour, the toilet was not even in my mind.
This is what it is like in my world,, stepping of the daily path is like a parachute jump without the parachute.
If I move of the know path, my body goes into tension, stress and shut down mode and all this does or has done over time has acted as a stimulas, response and reinforcement loop.
The truth be told, I am scared of people and my ability to cope around them, it is as if my egotistical mind has a broken personally which is fragile and can be destroyed by anyone near me.
Does anyone else have a similar problem or know of any solution.
