Notions of identity

What do you feel is part of your identity other than your diagnosis? I'm asking this, because I feel I've been getting a bit bogged down by my recent diagnosis and coming on here. I've said before that I don't want to be defined by my diagnosis, so thought I would write about other parts of my identity. I feel I've always had a strong sense of identity of some particular aspects of my life, and I think these will always be with me. I feel like they are (or have been) non-neogitable elements of my life.

Growing up I was into "alternative" stuff which probably doesn't seem that alternative now but in the late ninetines /early noughties it kind of was. Music was a big part of my identity and still is. Probably up until my late twenties, if someone was into music which I saw a less quality than my tastes, then that gave me good enough reason not to like them. Thankfully that has changed now. (Also, I think the idea of "alternative" is very different now because of the internet and things are more homogeonised, but I suppose individuals could still be seen as conventional or unconventional...)

Other notions of identity I can relate to are being northern and from a working class family. This is so important to me.  Having had a university education, I feel I'm somewhat "caught" in the middle of working and middle class now.  I feel I'm a bit too common for some people, but too "posh" for others. This links in with my accent which is also another big part of my identity.

Another one, and I don't know if this is to do with AS, is I feel as I'm getting older, I've got a better B.S. detector. A lot of my friends are into eating out and trying new fangled places, stuff they've read on social media and hyped up nonsense. I don't have social media apart from this forum. I dont think it's that I'm getting more cynical, I just feel a lot of it is style over substance and I'm really not interested in eating a croissant crossed with a donut and drinking an expensive coffee from a cafe made out of plywood. I feel like the world is getting overly fancy just for the sake of it. Everything has to become a "thing" these days.

I'm sure there's other stuff I will think of once I've posted.

So what about you? What do you strongly identify with which is something you aren't willing to budge on?

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  • I've had a massive identity crash in the last couple of years.

    Like yourself, I also used to be into "alternative" stuff when I was younger - I used to be a goth and I was really into goth/metal/industrial music. I wanted to belong somewhere as I wasn't normal, but my experiences with the alternative scene have been quite bad. They didn't accept or understand me, they move in massive social groups with like 30-40 people and they all just seem to show off in front of each other, and a lot of them are boring people, just with different clothes. Also, all of their socialising seems to revolve around getting blasted on alcohol and drugs. when I decided to become clean and sober, 95% of my "friends" disappeared.

    And also like yourself, I don't use social media. To me, Facebook is just bollocks where people compete about how many "friends" they have and boost each other's false egos. Everyone and their dog has a false persona online, which is nothing like they are in real life, and I find this annoying. I am also extremely cynical, I have very few friends.

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  • I've had a massive identity crash in the last couple of years.

    Like yourself, I also used to be into "alternative" stuff when I was younger - I used to be a goth and I was really into goth/metal/industrial music. I wanted to belong somewhere as I wasn't normal, but my experiences with the alternative scene have been quite bad. They didn't accept or understand me, they move in massive social groups with like 30-40 people and they all just seem to show off in front of each other, and a lot of them are boring people, just with different clothes. Also, all of their socialising seems to revolve around getting blasted on alcohol and drugs. when I decided to become clean and sober, 95% of my "friends" disappeared.

    And also like yourself, I don't use social media. To me, Facebook is just bollocks where people compete about how many "friends" they have and boost each other's false egos. Everyone and their dog has a false persona online, which is nothing like they are in real life, and I find this annoying. I am also extremely cynical, I have very few friends.

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