I sit here typing with extreme stomach/bowel pain,, my mother sits across from me, drinking bacardi and watching Jeremy Kyle. My step-father abuser and the intimidator is around at the shops getting another bottle of Whiskey.
All my life my parents have been just sitting across from me in the own worlds, but I suffer in silence, holding in the pain, not knowing how to communicate with them that I am in pain, because half my pain is them. So if I talk to them, I get more pain. The fear and non-presence which they give me has made me phobia of other people as I think they are weirdo's like my alcoholic agruing parents. In there eyes,, they are the salt of the earth, with a great relationship with everyone in the family.
Great eh..., happy families
So all this means with autism I AM in pain and can not tell anyone about it. If I was dying of a heart attack, I could not get help or tell anyone. The thought of even telling someone about my physical pain would stress me to hell, with strangers coming near me or touching me physically.
Any advice who to turn too, when you can not turn to anyone ? Pain trapped
