# Daily Updates #

nice read

I supposed to receive router from new broadband provider today, but nothing came, old service is disconected, so I'm without internet, typing on my phone now to let you know, until i sort it, i'll be mostly reading only

My employment Support Team read the Riot Act to me today. My brother ended up meeting me half-way for the Electricity Bill; which is through-the-roof. Also, I used the time out to pray at the Chapel in The Rock; before heading to Orritor for food, then taking the Teams call and visiting my Artist Friend - my de-facto Bubble - for a chat, and to borrow his laptop.

I haven't worked long enough, though, for contribution-based ESA.

We have one of these, I love it! For travel someone bought me an aeropress espresso maker and it's so handy, would highly recommend for anyone who camps but loves good coffee.

My face usually gives away if I'm lying or if I think someone else is lying. 

My access to work support worker suggested I talk to other neurodiverse people online so I'm going to try it but I do tend to start things and flake on them.

I'm in hospital just now, nothing serious. It's been planned for a while. The medicine they're giving me is making me really sick which I knew might happen but I'm hoping the pay off is that I'll be in less pain when I get home. 

I'm liking the routine of being in hospital and getting infusions. Everything is running like clockwork and there's no visiting so no noisy interruptions. I work in a hospital and know this routine well so it's quite comforting to be taken away from reality and put into a nice routine for a while. 

No doubt life will be very different on Monday, the healthboard next to mine has announced the closure of their theatres and outpatient departments. If my healthboard follows suit I face being redeployed again, not sure I can do that all over again. My manager has been on the work WhatsApp saying no plans yet but last time I found out by WhatsApp with almost no notice that my hospital was closing. 

Trying to just focus on the day but it's hard. 

I'll plant my first seeds at the weekend, I love my garden and manage a decent crop every year but being in Scotland I need to start early, get lots of light on them and protect from frost. It's a challenge but it keeps my mind off reality and stops me spiralling. Hope that everyone's Wednesday is going well. 

Lying is easy, it just takes practice.  I used to stammer when I told a particular lie for the first time.  Then it became easier and I lost the stammer.

I just had a crazy thought during freeze,

King George VI had Aspergers, and they were making him say lies publically, that is why he was stammering 

whenever I try to say a lie, I start to stammer and never finish the sentence, otherwise I speak normally

Had uni today and then did colouring in and watching The Office US. Also listened to music too

Mariusz said:

sift

not sure if that's the word to use in that context

nice coffe my style, mug of espresso+ shot of amaretto, I love old style italian coffee maker I bought while ago, the one you put on hob and it makes water vapor sift throught coffee to top container

i did one of those -  not sure how i came across. Make sure all doors are closed. I would clear out and go shopping for food or walk for exercise be away an hour then make him a nice coffee.

My brother has an online job interview tomorrow. So, I'll have to occupy my time elsewhere then.

today is an important day, a friend is coming over for a dinner

so I better go start cleaning, before I get to anxious about amount of things to be done 

WINDOWS ERR-999  Recharge Batteries Warning  ! please use Safe Mode 

I took a sleeping tablet from a friend and it worked! I slept all night, phew, and I've managed to get up! I arranged with a colleague that she knocks at my door at 9:15 so I get to work.

My morning routine's been shattered by lockdown then 2 running buddies going flakey at the same time. I've put this week's goal to 'survive'. I'll aim to run alone this eve, I find that easier, mornings I can't motivate myself alone even though it transforms my day.

I've asked my support bubble to have me to dinner tonight. I'm struggling with a broken heart:(.

Well done, been hard for me this week too.

up already, first time in looong time no struggle with leaving the bed, alarm rang and I got up :)

My test result is negative. 

Yay!