# Daily Updates #

Had jab all ok 

If I got the job it would have made my other plans difficult. But applied for the job before having my thoughts about studies. Thought it would be a useful experience to do the interview. 

Fortunately, I am no good at interviews, so escaped this one. It was good interview practice thought which is really what I wanted.

we're having a barbecue tonight ! 

Left work early today. The project is finally DONE! Unsurprisingly I've committed the lions share of it to words but the feeling seems to be unanimous among all of us that we don't want to go back to it for any follow up (although things can change a lot over a long weekend).

I'm not re-listing all the nonsense here, safe to say I can get back to my end-to-end asks, investigations and resolutions without interference. It'll be a long time before I lead again on something of this type - and very unlikely I'll be doing in this management chain. My state of mind has been awful - and I'll be thinking a lot over the next few months as to what to do next (although I'm hoping the role I'm going back to will work out).

Looking forward to the next few days. No plans. Perhaps that's for the best.

then back to work while the sun shines ---- saw my garden rat today - havent seen him/her for few days,,,,,,  what do rats do on their holidays ? 

got my COVID 19 vaccination today  ,,,, it was amazing to see all the people being vaccinated. Major victory for NHS and Science  and all the volunteer helpers 

collected daughter from school 6 hour round trip really happy. First lamb born 

what ?

Best of luck in whichever way you want it to work out 

Wrapping things up now before the Easter break.

Had a query come in, great to sit and explore how to mine the data to get what we need. Puzzle solving - almost therapeutic.

Project ends tomorrow. 

More home working. Got four meetings tomorrow.

Job interview tomorrow. Hoping the interview goes well, but that I don't get the job. Compilcated I know!

Uploading new videos to Youtube ;) 

My uncle returned my electric mower for me this afternoon. But the first cut of the season has to be placed in the long finger. Rain has stopped play.

Into the last few days of the project. Mixed feelings. The small team I've worked with have done a great piece of work. If we'd had more time I could have worked wonders with the data. Such is the short-sightedness of others. 

I'd like to say I'm looking forward to getting back to my normality in my old job that I barely had chance to look around in. Found out today someone is trying to siphon the fun part of it (the data!!) off to a centralised team. 

I can't even get frustrated. Probably because I know everything is in chaos at the moment. At least that's how it seems. 

Slept well after work. I lost a lot of the evening, which I feel a bit guilty about because the weather was lovely, but I'm feeling refreshed. The last few days I've been in this unhealthy cycle of working too hard (Friday was a late finish - again!), gaming (which I always do too much of if I feel stressed) and sleeping (which I'll do continuously because stress always leaves me feeling tired). 

Finished Temple Grandin's / Sean Barron's book last night. Not the easiest of reads because it stirred up a lot of uncomfortable memories (and it seems they had very supportive families) but in the long run I think this will help to have stored in the back of my mind somewhere. It is forcing me to think about how I interact with others and how my internal set of rules causes me to tip over when something, or someone, unexpected happens.

It's odd - I feel like I'm learning things for the first time. When my psychologist said I'd had a double hit with the diagnosis and my home life it's really starting to sink in what she meant by that. Things are so much clearer now.

Visited my Artist friend to get the £25 he owed me for a CD I ordered for him, from Bandcamp.

I began reading the poems from the Poetry Pharmacy. One was 'Everything will be all right' by Derek Mahon.

Inspiring.

I slept from 4 am to 1 pm today.

yesterday read all about what Master Huineng AD660 was saying/not saying about Zen until my head hurt. Today back to work trying to catch up ASAP

Lucky you!    Been up since 3am