Into the last few days of the project. Mixed feelings. The small team I've worked with have done a great piece of work. If we'd had more time I could have worked wonders with the data. Such is the short-sightedness of others.
I'd like to say I'm looking forward to getting back to my normality in my old job that I barely had chance to look around in. Found out today someone is trying to siphon the fun part of it (the data!!) off to a centralised team.
I can't even get frustrated. Probably because I know everything is in chaos at the moment. At least that's how it seems.
Slept well after work. I lost a lot of the evening, which I feel a bit guilty about because the weather was lovely, but I'm feeling refreshed. The last few days I've been in this unhealthy cycle of working too hard (Friday was a late finish - again!), gaming (which I always do too much of if I feel stressed) and sleeping (which I'll do continuously because stress always leaves me feeling tired).
Finished Temple Grandin's / Sean Barron's book last night. Not the easiest of reads because it stirred up a lot of uncomfortable memories (and it seems they had very supportive families) but in the long run I think this will help to have stored in the back of my mind somewhere. It is forcing me to think about how I interact with others and how my internal set of rules causes me to tip over when something, or someone, unexpected happens.
It's odd - I feel like I'm learning things for the first time. When my psychologist said I'd had a double hit with the diagnosis and my home life it's really starting to sink in what she meant by that. Things are so much clearer now.
Into the last few days of the project. Mixed feelings. The small team I've worked with have done a great piece of work. If we'd had more time I could have worked wonders with the data. Such is the short-sightedness of others.
I'd like to say I'm looking forward to getting back to my normality in my old job that I barely had chance to look around in. Found out today someone is trying to siphon the fun part of it (the data!!) off to a centralised team.
I can't even get frustrated. Probably because I know everything is in chaos at the moment. At least that's how it seems.
Slept well after work. I lost a lot of the evening, which I feel a bit guilty about because the weather was lovely, but I'm feeling refreshed. The last few days I've been in this unhealthy cycle of working too hard (Friday was a late finish - again!), gaming (which I always do too much of if I feel stressed) and sleeping (which I'll do continuously because stress always leaves me feeling tired).
Finished Temple Grandin's / Sean Barron's book last night. Not the easiest of reads because it stirred up a lot of uncomfortable memories (and it seems they had very supportive families) but in the long run I think this will help to have stored in the back of my mind somewhere. It is forcing me to think about how I interact with others and how my internal set of rules causes me to tip over when something, or someone, unexpected happens.
It's odd - I feel like I'm learning things for the first time. When my psychologist said I'd had a double hit with the diagnosis and my home life it's really starting to sink in what she meant by that. Things are so much clearer now.
