Does this seem reasonable or am I being stupid?

Hi all, I hope you are all coping as well as possible in the current situation. I wanted if possible to get some of your quick opinions on my strategy for getting myself through everything, as reasonable human beings in a possibly similar situation.

I recently had the result of my ESA reassessment and for the first time ever instead of having to fight and appeal just to get into the work related activity group I was placed in the support group and finally feel I at least in the medium term have some security. With all the current restrictions and the fact that I live with my parents, both of whom I considered to be vulnerable to this due to age and things like blood pressure I am needing to hold things together to go into the supermarket alone while they wait in the car. I have a really good reusable respirator from before all this I got for spray painting models so it makes sense. It takes me longer on my own and I need to lay down after (after showering!).

Anyway the thing I am doing to get through is dangling a big reward for myself once things relax at least a bit. It's something I have wanted for a very long time but being on benefits I always feel affected by the "you shouldn't get things you don't strictly need" attitude. All this though has made me realise that life can be short and continuously denying a dream could mean it never happening. I have the means to save for it right now as I am being very frugal, but I still feel a bit guilty for wanting to buy myself a big treat in this situation. Incase anyone is curious its a warhammer titan model, a massive modelling project. Is it morally ok to go for it if I can? 

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  • No you aren't mean, you didn't say anything mean. Just sensible stuff, and the price of this thing is horrendous. You are right about what you said concerning money and regrets. I guess in a way its no worse than spending a similar amount on a new shiny top end graphics card for a computer (never done that but I know people who have). Also its my birthday next week so I suppose I could pretend 37 is a major milestone worthy of major celebration. Oh well, maybe there will be a post from me in a month or 2 or whenever things open up showing a box containing about 5-6kg of resin model parts!

    Seriously thanks for the feedback though, sometimes it feels like although you already sort of know the answer you just need to bounce it off other people to check you haven't gone crazy.

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