Hi guys,
Just having a bit of a "why me" moment really... 
Had a doozy of a meltdown last night, ds (6) threw a toy at me, kicked me in the stomach, licked the carpet, banged his head on the wall etc etc etc.. We have them on average of fortnightly atm which i know is quite good (they used to be every other day but we are getting there) but they are just getting so out of control as he gets stronger :(
Tried to have the "calm down" chat afterwards and he brought up the toy he had thrown and for about 3 seconds i thought OMG hes actually showing remorse.. but then he went onto talk about what part of the toy hit me, was it this part of that part, if this part hurt me this much would that part have hurt more or less? etc etc - as he was calmly chatting about this my heart was actually breaking into teeny tiny pieces as it dawned on me that this likely wont change :(
Got an appointment on 20.11.12 for THE chat re: medication - DS is showing significant signs of Sensory issues (mostly hyposensitivity) but also quite alot of ADD/ADHD signs (usually related to overstimulation though)... I just want someone else to make the decisions for a bit? Does anyone ahve any experiences positive/negative with medication? I just feel like such a cop out for even considering it....... But i honestly wonder how much longer i can contain the meltdowns before me or someone else gets really bloody hurt!!
Im sick to the back teeth of Speech and Language (whom i am actually starting to dislike quite intensely!!), OT popped it, promised the world then disappeared again, my husband works away and Ds's dad is adament that its just a phase he will outgrow!!!
I feel so alone right now :(
