Published on 12, July, 2020
I suffer from the dual evil of nightmares and insomnia and need help.
For example, today I woke at 4am from a nightmare and I cannot fall asleep (insomnia). I am also afraid to go back to sleep because in the past I have had nightmares following nightmares when I fall asleep after a short break.
With inadequate sleep I get up tired. With nightmarish sleep I get up tired.
I don't have sleeping tablets at home as a precaution. Because in my recent past I've attempted suicide by overdosing with tablets.
So I sit in bed. Either reading , worrying or on the internet.
Any Help or advice is much appreciated!
Another problem I have that's related to insomnia, is falling asleep during the daytime.
This can happen on buses, trains or most often at home in the early evening.
An incident that's happened several times. Is that I lie down on the bed around 5pm. Then when I wake up. I have no idea where I am or what's happened and I'm in a state of panic. Last week I woke up around 6:30 ( I could see the time on a large clock). I was lying on the bed with my daytime clothes on. It was light and I had no idea if it was morning or evening. I was certain that I'd slept all night with my clothes on. It was only after i switched on the TV. I realised it was still evening and I'd only slept for an hour!!!
Snap! This happens to me too - if I'm doing something that requires attention, I'm 110% awake. Whenever I can drop down from 'alert mode', if I get slightly warm & comfortable, I'm gone.
It's not like normal sleep - it's like blinking - but I wake up hours later. I can then 'blink' again and I lose another few hours. I can then wake up in the middle of the night disoriented in the darkness and blnk again and it's 9am.
Life gets complicated when you lose track of days.