...all I want to do is go out and get a nice bottle or two of red wine.
Not to get bladdered. Not because my body is craving booze.
But just to get some relief from all the greed, selfishness, vanity, savagery, bigotry, trash and plain stupidity I can't help noticing all around me!
I don't need to make a list. It's everything from violence in Gaza and Derry, to desperate refugees being turned back out to sea by populist governments, to people leaving their crap everywhere, to pre-school kids of Generation Z with their heads stuck in their phones.
The human race is nuts. It's doomed.
I've found myself sleeping much more now. Over the weekend, I've napped at regular intervals. I've tried reading, but can't focus on it for long enough. Sleep gives me some reprieve. Death's second self.
I just want to escape.
"Accident black spot? These aren't accidents. People are throwing themselves into the road willingly to escape all this hideousness. Go ahead, darling! Throw yourself into the road!"
Withnail - 'Withnail and I'
(now I'll shut up and go hide again...)
It's probably quite normal. My brain's coming alive again. I'm more receptive to stuff. And it just all looks horrible from where I'm sitting right now.
It will take a while for the dust to settle. You will notice the call to the bottle more when you are tired, bored or stressed. It can be there but you don’t have to do what it says. The more you ignore it the easier it becomes.
Thanks, roper. Yep. I've been here before a few times. I'll work it through somehow. I'm now too late for the supermarkets, anyway - which is a bonus. My options are more limited now, where I live.
I'll try a book again, too...
Hi Tom, if you want something to do - saying no to this, is an option - pick a painting by the chap below and we’ll discuss it. His paintings are about perception. Rene Magritte.
Thanks, Graham. Yes, I'm a bit familiar with him. I used one of his paintings for an image-editing exercise a while ago. What does this say, I wonder, about my perceptions?
That made me laugh out loud. I haven't seen it before. I've managed to keep my old nokia going. I'm a smartphone free area.
It's an Apple - but it isn't an apple. Neither is it an apple. Try biting it!
Maybe I should fire up my pipe again, thinking about that...
This looks a nice place for a picnic.
If you can’t have heaven on earth, how about earth in heaven?