The overactive mind that doesn't even recognise when it's tired....

Can somebody tell me where the switch is please? That's it 

  • Which switch are you referring to? 

  • well I realised today, that the understanding and awareness goes on forever, it never ends! Lol! And it's like, I'm sure, deep down, I must think that the more I know, the less autistic I'm going to be or something. I've decided that for the next few weeks/months I'm just going to focus on my physical body. I'm going to get into a bed/morning routine, eating/drinking every day, fresh air and exercise - which is what I was supposed to be doing anyway, and I'm just going to forget about understanding this, that or the other and just be! I've had so many realisations these past few weeks that I don't think I can cope with anymore anyway. I was feeling like my head was about to burst, it's like all these realisations were coming quicker than I could write them down to make sense of them. I felt like they were just coming and coming and I wanted to find the switch to switch them off because what good do they do me anyway? And I eventually realised I was tired! I mean, who doesn't realise that they're tired!!!! How are you supposed to know when you're tired when you've barely moved a muscle in over a year! Lol! 

    Thank you for your loving support Eli, as always. It's very much appreciated and yes, I'm going to take a few days and see if I can relax a bit. I've also got a cat to get rid of, ill feel a lot better when that's not here. It's a gorgeous little cat (looking after it for somebody) but it's got to go, it feels like there's another person in the house  and it's not good for me. 

    I'm going to read your words again tomorrow because I'm amazed at how you put the words together but I feel the full force of the essence of what you're saying and I can tell you, I'm going to sleep feeling very content or comforted and loved - it's a very nice feeling, thank you X

  • I think some people have half-seriously suggested alcohol (each pint of beer reduces my IQ by at least 10 points...). Healthier ideas include exercise and meditation. A combination of a tired mind and a tired body and bringing bedtime forwards a bit could improve my sleep.

    Writing helps get ideas out, but allows space for new ones. That may be a good or a bad thing.  I hope you manage to improve lifestyle.

  • Give yourself a treat:-