I would benefit from lifelong therapy

I have been in and out of therapy for over 6 years now and one of them was a therapy relationship for over 3 years. It ended dreadfully after she had a mental breakdown but it profoundly changed me overall and despite ethical mistakes at the end, she truly helped me so much.

I have complex trauma and autism so I see the world through a different lens, the world is not built for people like us.

I tend to fall apart without professional support to help coregulate me. I like having a safe space. It is difficult becasue it is all supposed to be time limited and goal focused.

I guess I struggle and I also feel shame from long term therapy. Therapy is also really hard to access, i have been lucky so far, except for the unethical things that left me harmed.

I feel like I have many traumatic memories that would not feel so traumatising to a NT because it would be less confusing.

I don't know.

I am working on finding groups etc. 

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  • Hi there, I am also in a long term therapy about 7 or 8 years now. I have PTSD and complex prolonged bereavement and of course, Autism on to of that. There is nothing to be ashamed of regards therapy, instead it is a good reason to be proud of yourself for taking action and doing something to help yourself.

    It is a myth that therapy always supposed to  be time limited and/or goal focused (it can be, but not for everyone). I don't think that a "typical" 10 session way is catering for autistic people way of being in the world. 

    My first therapy experience was NHS 10 sessions. The therapist was great, yet for me it went something like this; First couple sessions I was trying to understand what ******* is going on, following sessions I spent between panicking that I have to be "healed" by the end of 10 weeks or I will be a failure, and masking and trying to act as I supposed people it therapy behave. The best thing that came out of it was that I understood that I need therapy. It took me good couple years to be able just to be raw me in my sessions. And fact that I now that I am not pressed for a time limit or goals , most definitely takes off the pressure.

    I hope that you reported the therapist regards unethical behaviour and I don't think that there is any time limit how long after you can report it.

    Sorry that reply is so long (if topic is so "close to home" I don't know how to stop.) x

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  • Hi there, I am also in a long term therapy about 7 or 8 years now. I have PTSD and complex prolonged bereavement and of course, Autism on to of that. There is nothing to be ashamed of regards therapy, instead it is a good reason to be proud of yourself for taking action and doing something to help yourself.

    It is a myth that therapy always supposed to  be time limited and/or goal focused (it can be, but not for everyone). I don't think that a "typical" 10 session way is catering for autistic people way of being in the world. 

    My first therapy experience was NHS 10 sessions. The therapist was great, yet for me it went something like this; First couple sessions I was trying to understand what ******* is going on, following sessions I spent between panicking that I have to be "healed" by the end of 10 weeks or I will be a failure, and masking and trying to act as I supposed people it therapy behave. The best thing that came out of it was that I understood that I need therapy. It took me good couple years to be able just to be raw me in my sessions. And fact that I now that I am not pressed for a time limit or goals , most definitely takes off the pressure.

    I hope that you reported the therapist regards unethical behaviour and I don't think that there is any time limit how long after you can report it.

    Sorry that reply is so long (if topic is so "close to home" I don't know how to stop.) x

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