I have been in and out of therapy for over 6 years now and one of them was a therapy relationship for over 3 years. It ended dreadfully after she had a mental breakdown but it profoundly changed me overall and despite ethical mistakes at the end, she truly helped me so much.
I have complex trauma and autism so I see the world through a different lens, the world is not built for people like us.
I tend to fall apart without professional support to help coregulate me. I like having a safe space. It is difficult becasue it is all supposed to be time limited and goal focused.
I guess I struggle and I also feel shame from long term therapy. Therapy is also really hard to access, i have been lucky so far, except for the unethical things that left me harmed.
I feel like I have many traumatic memories that would not feel so traumatising to a NT because it would be less confusing.
I don't know.
I am working on finding groups etc.