Unpredictability causes me a huge stress. In moments like this I think that im totally Unfit for this world. My manager told me today, that he just terminated his contract and he is here till the end of October. The same time, when I have my assessments. I started crying instantly, as I heard the news. I explained to him that im crying, because I got used to him being here our manager. He said, he will miss us as a team, but he has disagreements with the boss. I understand. On one hand I'm grateful that he let me know in advance, on other hand, he said that at an unfortunate moment short before a big delivery, when I had to concentrate and struggled to calm down and stop crying. I don't want to react so emotionally. I can't change it. It's always like this ans it's stronger than me. It's part of my disability. I also started asking him questions about the future, what will happen, who will come instead of him etc.
Just sharing. I'm pretty distressed now, but I have a new lego set in my bag. I will try to build something this evening.
