I can't human today

Thanks for the information, this is all still very new to me so any guidance gratefully received.

Longfella said:

ars before I even considered any Neurodiversity could be causing how I was feeling

Just to clarify, here’s some information on the language around autism and neurodiversity, which I hope is helpful:

"It is common for words related to neurodiversity to be misused. For example, people might say ‘Autistic people are neurodiverse’ when they mean ‘Autistic people are neurodivergent’.

Examples of accurate phrases include:

Humans are neurodiverse.
Autistic people are neurodivergent.
Autism is a form of neurodivergence."

NAS - Autism and neurodiversity

Hi and welcome to the community.

That's an awful lot to deal with, both practically and emotionally. As one of the articles below explains:

"When an autistic person is struggling to process too much information at one time, this can lead to feelings of high anxiety and overwhelm. These feelings can result in changes of behaviour that are often labelled meltdowns or shutdowns. "

Alongside perhaps seeking support from your GP, you might find the advice and suggested strategies in these resources helpful:

Leicestershire Partnership NHS Trust - Understanding autistic meltdowns and shutdowns

NAS - Meltdowns

NAS - Autistic fatigue and burnout

NAS Professional Practice - Understanding autistic burnout

NAS - Seeking help with mental health

There's also some great (free) advice here from Dr Megan Neff - a neurodivergent author, clinician and advocate:

Neurodivergent Insights - Autistic Burnout Recovery: How to Build a Recovery Plan

I also have this book of hers. It's very user-friendly, including lots of diagrams and worksheets:

Amazon UK - The Autistic Burnout Workbook: Your Guide to Your Personal Recovery Plan

Sorry to hear how you're feeling. 

As someone else who works in IT I understand the pressure there can be when updating everything, keeping it compliant and also make sure everything is running properly. It's not an easy task.

Add to that moving house, the family stuff and inevitable soul searching and second guessing that came with the assessment journey (or at least my experience of it) it's no wonder you're feeling you've shut down.

I've found that accepting and acknowledging that you've reached that point is the first step.

I've also had problems with burnout over the last few years, it sounds like you're doing the right thing to try and recover by doing very little. I've found that time to myself where I can do what I want to be very beneficial, whether this is sit and binge watch something or read, it even just sit in silence.

Do you have any hobbies that help you relax? My wife swears by jigsaws for this!

Is there anyone you can talk to about how you're feeling? 

Years before I even considered any Neurodiversity could be causing how I was feeling I found going to the GP and talking to them made a big difference, but I know that it's not easy to get an appointment or to take that step