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I've been having the same dream at night

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I have no interest in a relationship, as I've become progressively physically and mentally ill. It's out of the question and I'm ok with it. I wouldn't even entertain it.

Lately I've been dreaming that I'm well and in a healthy relationship, but it doesn't cross my mind when I'm awake.

  • I got a phone call from the hospital to arrange an endoscopy for my throat, to see if my Barratt's esophagus has turned to cancer. I asked about my colonoscopy and he said they sent me a letter for it and I didn't turn up. The same message was sent to my GP and he didn't mention it, so I don't know what happened there.

    I dread the thought of carrying a colostomy bag. I live with my mother atm and my room is chock full of boxes from when I moved out of my flat. She has two sheds and a space for a third. I asked if i could buy a shed to store my things temporarily and she refused. 

    She started insulting me about not having children and having Universal Credit. "I don't care what you do. Just give me a grandchild"

    I'd like to live in Wales near a beach. Maybe Botany Bay.

  • You can see from my posts that my mind jumps around. That's why I can't socialise anymore. I'm ok with it. I'm still in there somewhere.

  • When I was fit enough to work, my colleagues kept asking me what was wrong with my stomach as it was swollen and enlarged. I went to my GP and eventually got a colonoscopy. That's when they saw the servere diverticulosis. Then I got an endoscopy and they found the hernia in my throat and the Barratt's esophagus.

    My medication makes me sleep a lot and makes me dopey. I'm just trying to ride it out.

  • When I started to get sick, I stopped the idea of having a GF. The last girl I was with was in 2007. I saw a guy I used to know in the high street and he was talking to me. I politely cut him off. I can't have friends either.