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I've been having the same dream at night

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I have no interest in a relationship, as I've become progressively physically and mentally ill. It's out of the question and I'm ok with it. I wouldn't even entertain it.

Lately I've been dreaming that I'm well and in a healthy relationship, but it doesn't cross my mind when I'm awake.

  • I think there is some science to dreams, though I find know a lot about this field, but it must be good to have a dream where you don't have problems, very freeing! Especially when you have a lot of difficult stuff in your life, good dreams are great escape from it!

    It is good that you're colleagues prompted you to get checked out, it's not always easy to know when something isn't right if you only have yourself for reference! Sometimes it takes an outside person to point it out. I hope the rest of your medical tests go well, my mother-in-law had to have major surgery to remove most of her intestine and was in so much pain. She has to have a bag now, but it is better than the pain she was in. Something's aren't ideal but better than the alternative! 

    And I think a lot of people on here and relate to having unhelpful comments from parents rather than being supportive. I do hope you can get your dream place by the sea, I know it's more a dream, but maybe having some pictures around would be good at least! 

  • Sorry, I'm oversharing again. Good night.

  • I got a phone call from the hospital to arrange an endoscopy for my throat, to see if my Barratt's esophagus has turned to cancer. I asked about my colonoscopy and he said they sent me a letter for it and I didn't turn up. The same message was sent to my GP and he didn't mention it, so I don't know what happened there.

    I dread the thought of carrying a colostomy bag. I live with my mother atm and my room is chock full of boxes from when I moved out of my flat. She has two sheds and a space for a third. I asked if i could buy a shed to store my things temporarily and she refused. 

    She started insulting me about not having children and having Universal Credit. "I don't care what you do. Just give me a grandchild"

    I'd like to live in Wales near a beach. Maybe Botany Bay.

  • You can see from my posts that my mind jumps around. That's why I can't socialise anymore. I'm ok with it. I'm still in there somewhere.

  • When I was fit enough to work, my colleagues kept asking me what was wrong with my stomach as it was swollen and enlarged. I went to my GP and eventually got a colonoscopy. That's when they saw the servere diverticulosis. Then I got an endoscopy and they found the hernia in my throat and the Barratt's esophagus.

    My medication makes me sleep a lot and makes me dopey. I'm just trying to ride it out.

  • When I started to get sick, I stopped the idea of having a GF. The last girl I was with was in 2007. I saw a guy I used to know in the high street and he was talking to me. I politely cut him off. I can't have friends either.