Roller coaster

I'm sorry fir sharing this. It's gonna be short. I have a roller coaster, I have my appointment dates for assessment, and once I feel happy about it, then anxious, then I feel that I regret that I have them, and feel like going to cancel it, but then I'm afraid of doing something I would regret later. I'm also afraid of getting autism diagnosis,  I'm afraid I will regret having it. Then I'm afraid of being told I'm not autistic or being totally dismissed. Recently I saw a video of Uta Frith complaining about autism misdiagnosis and overdiagnosis. But then I concluded, that she should tale the responsibility and not complain about people getting the diagnosis and I also added that it's interesting that she is upset about people being misdiagnosed with autism (yes a false negative diagnosis is possible) but she seems to be oblivious to the fact that there are a lot of people misdiagnosed with other conditions. Nobody is upset about misdiagnosis in depression or bipolar, tourette etc. Many people, especially adults who get the late autism diagnosis were diagnosed/misdiagnosed with other conditions earlier. 

So I have a lot of anxiety because I have no idea how it feels to have this diagnosis, I don't know how I will feel, if it helps me or not, I don't know what will happen next. Is there anyone who went through this?

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  • I feel all the things you’re feeling. I do want to get diagnosed as autistic, I don’t feel afraid because I feel it really fits who I am. But I also feel I’m not going say things well enough for the assessor to get the information they need, this gives me anxiety. It’s the unknown, it makes us feel so uncomfortable. 

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  • I feel all the things you’re feeling. I do want to get diagnosed as autistic, I don’t feel afraid because I feel it really fits who I am. But I also feel I’m not going say things well enough for the assessor to get the information they need, this gives me anxiety. It’s the unknown, it makes us feel so uncomfortable. 

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