Roller coaster

I'm sorry fir sharing this. It's gonna be short. I have a roller coaster, I have my appointment dates for assessment, and once I feel happy about it, then anxious, then I feel that I regret that I have them, and feel like going to cancel it, but then I'm afraid of doing something I would regret later. I'm also afraid of getting autism diagnosis,  I'm afraid I will regret having it. Then I'm afraid of being told I'm not autistic or being totally dismissed. Recently I saw a video of Uta Frith complaining about autism misdiagnosis and overdiagnosis. But then I concluded, that she should tale the responsibility and not complain about people getting the diagnosis and I also added that it's interesting that she is upset about people being misdiagnosed with autism (yes a false negative diagnosis is possible) but she seems to be oblivious to the fact that there are a lot of people misdiagnosed with other conditions. Nobody is upset about misdiagnosis in depression or bipolar, tourette etc. Many people, especially adults who get the late autism diagnosis were diagnosed/misdiagnosed with other conditions earlier. 

So I have a lot of anxiety because I have no idea how it feels to have this diagnosis, I don't know how I will feel, if it helps me or not, I don't know what will happen next. Is there anyone who went through this?

Parents
  • Firstly, ignore comments about over diagnosis. Even if there is some, there is no reason to think it applies to you.

    In many cases there is little to no state provided support for adults, so why would people be against people being diagnosed. Particularly since it can provide validation and clarity that can help people's mental health. This is a positive thing that is worth  knowing. It can help reduce the worst effects such as burn out, and depression, etc.

    You don't have to tell anyone. This is information for you. It helps you to understand yourself.

    What you are primarily anxious about is the uncertainty. Not knowing what to expect, what the result will be, how to react, is stressful.

    There may also be a strong feeling based on fear of rejection. This is based more on you background. I had this. It is not a test that you have to pass, although it feels like it. If you don't pass then you don't understand what is up with you.

    Feeling uncertain, flipping between views is not surprising.

    Try not to worry too much. It will go fine.

    It can help inform you future course. It will help with any psychologist or psychiatrist sessions in the future.

  • Thank you for your answer. I'm not sure if it would help in contact with mental health professionals in the future because they may not take this diagnosis seriously, or me seriously. 

    I will try not to worry. The diagnosis brings clarity so it serves its medical purpose.

  • Professionals should take you seriously. People don't normally go through this process for no reason. The fact you are so worried suggests it is not nothing. They will see this.

    If the diagnosis is from a professional, others should take it into consideration.

Reply Children
  • I had one psychiatrist laughing me out because of my symptoms.  She said, yeah it's the popular diagnosis, now everyone gets tested for autism and adhd. It was before I had the therapy with my current therapist,  which I'm happy with. That psychiatrist is just an example,  that absolutely not all doctors take patients seriously