Earlier today my mum was trying to explain something to me in regards towards shopping or whatever. Anyways, she explain the question clearly enough for me and then started getting angry and frustrated with me even though she's the one not explaining it CLEARLY to me. The next thing I know she's then yelling at me and then says something along the lines of "Even by autistic standards, this is easy for anyone to understand"... thus making me feel and sound like an absolute idiot. Eventually what felt like an eternity of her shouting and screaming the same thing over and over at me (by which this point I'm having a breakdown and crying my eyes out) she then finally asks me the question in the way which she should explained it to me in the first place and I was finally able to answer her which I thought would satisfy her, but instead of apologising to me for getting unnecessarily angry at me instead she somehow she turned it round somehow made it out like it's MY fault for not being able understand a simple question and that I was acting like a baby for being upset at her shouting at me...
I should point out that this isn't the first time this sort of situation has happened. For years, I've went though this sort of situation/altercation and it's always the same. They ask me a question or ask me to do something, I'm left confused because they haven't explained the question or given me the instructions properly and clearly, they then get angry and frustrated with me and when I finally do understand what they asked of me, they then make it sound as if it's my fault for not being able to think like a "normal" person. But what makes me more upset is the times when they do give some sort of apology, most of the time it's always "We're sorry you FELT hurt"... never "We’re sorry we hurt you".
The fact that they are trying somehow justify verbal attacks on me, the fact they genuinely don't think they did anything wrong... that's what hurts me the most. It hurts because it only reinforces the idea that I'M the problem, that I'm stupid even by autistic standards. I love my parents but It's moments like that where they appear so self riteous and a little self absorbed
Has anybody else felt like this?
Has anyone else been through something like this?
Or am I overreacting??
