Feeling lost

Hello,

I recieved my austism diagnosed a few weeks ago now however I'm really struggling with myself.

I did feel confused and unsure but I thought after reading some articles and books I would've begun to feel more at ease and knowing just a tiny bit more about myself. I've tried implementing somethings that I've read but it feels more like it's backfired in that others don't like it or it makes me feel uncomfortable. 

Then this article from Dr Frith has come out and now I'm questioning was my diagnosis correct am I autistic at all?! I just have no clue, I feel like I've lost myself and don't know who I am anymore. Everything is heightened, I'm over analysing everything and I'm just unhappy.

I have signed up for some suppprt sessions so just waiting to hear about those. But I wondered what others have done in this situation and if anything I'm hoping to find people who understand.

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  • I was 50 before anyone mentioned that I could be autistic and a further 3 years before I was finally assessed. You'd think that it wouldn't be such a big thing, you are still you, you just have a little more information about yourself that shouldn't really change much at all,but it does, it changes everything that you considered to be you.

    I was hit by this huge wave of grief of all the supposedly lost possibilities and also the seemingly never ending identity crisis of who the hell am I (really). I found that I'd been masking and mirroring my whole life just to feel accepted by my peers, those acts had fundamentally broken something inside me.

    I found that talking to a professional and researching my condition((s) I was diagnosed with inattentive ADHD 8 months later)) really helpful. This site has a wealth of links and knowledge and the good people on here can usually be relied on to point you in the right direction.

    I'm about 15 months post diagnosis and I still either have my doubts and the diagnosis or I'm just feel completely broken and unworthy.

    It will take time and I suppose it's different for all of us, I'm hoping I gain some sort self acceptance sooner rather than later.

    Anyway welcome and take care.

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  • I was 50 before anyone mentioned that I could be autistic and a further 3 years before I was finally assessed. You'd think that it wouldn't be such a big thing, you are still you, you just have a little more information about yourself that shouldn't really change much at all,but it does, it changes everything that you considered to be you.

    I was hit by this huge wave of grief of all the supposedly lost possibilities and also the seemingly never ending identity crisis of who the hell am I (really). I found that I'd been masking and mirroring my whole life just to feel accepted by my peers, those acts had fundamentally broken something inside me.

    I found that talking to a professional and researching my condition((s) I was diagnosed with inattentive ADHD 8 months later)) really helpful. This site has a wealth of links and knowledge and the good people on here can usually be relied on to point you in the right direction.

    I'm about 15 months post diagnosis and I still either have my doubts and the diagnosis or I'm just feel completely broken and unworthy.

    It will take time and I suppose it's different for all of us, I'm hoping I gain some sort self acceptance sooner rather than later.

    Anyway welcome and take care.

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