I'm worried

I'm worried about my therapist being angry or somehow negative to me for me medicating myself without consulting him. It's not fully "myself" these are meds prescribed to me by my previous psychiatrist. My mom brought me 2 more packs of those pills, that helped me at that time with a severe crisis. Then I stopped taking them. Now I had another severe crisis, which I shared with mods in email, but won't share much of it here. I was really close to do something I would regret. So I took these meds again, waiting till Wednesday (my appointment) would be too long. These meds give side effects which I don't like but being sane is more important for me. Should I just tell the doctor that I take them and not worry or should I prepare somehow? 

Sorry if it sounds stupid, it's my first ever therapy. 

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  • I think therapists see a lot of people who self-medicate. You have the understanding, that self Medication can be problematic, this is important. But it was a survival strategy and the best you saw at the time (this is what my therapists told me whenever I noticed I made some decisions that were maybe not the best ones).

    Concerning side effekts you should def see a doctor, but with the therapist I would share as well. It might help them to understand you better and they might have additional ideas that you could not think of yet.

    All the therapists I ever met would never be angry, but I was also afraid of that very often. Therapists are no judges. While they might point out that self-medication is not always the healthiest way of dealing with stuff they should show compassion for you feeling the way you did, so that you can learn self-compassion as well.

    In my opinion a bad survival strategy is better than not surviving. Time and consulting can always help you find better ways once you stabilized a little.

    By the way: talking to the mods was a healthy way of coping, so I think you can be very proud of that as well, since it is not always easy to find healthy ways when in a big crisis.

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  • I think therapists see a lot of people who self-medicate. You have the understanding, that self Medication can be problematic, this is important. But it was a survival strategy and the best you saw at the time (this is what my therapists told me whenever I noticed I made some decisions that were maybe not the best ones).

    Concerning side effekts you should def see a doctor, but with the therapist I would share as well. It might help them to understand you better and they might have additional ideas that you could not think of yet.

    All the therapists I ever met would never be angry, but I was also afraid of that very often. Therapists are no judges. While they might point out that self-medication is not always the healthiest way of dealing with stuff they should show compassion for you feeling the way you did, so that you can learn self-compassion as well.

    In my opinion a bad survival strategy is better than not surviving. Time and consulting can always help you find better ways once you stabilized a little.

    By the way: talking to the mods was a healthy way of coping, so I think you can be very proud of that as well, since it is not always easy to find healthy ways when in a big crisis.

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