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Bitter man

Doberkiin

I am 44, spent 25 years of my life as an alcoholic to make myself a NT servant. Long story short, got sober and psychoanalysed then was diagnosed with Autism. This obviously answered most questions in my life bla bla usual late diagnoses story. Been dry a while now and the only other feeling I feel then the normal "blank" is anger, real anger rage, it changes my whole body like nothing else does, it is quite intoxicating. I now have such a hated for the human civilisation for encouraging  me losing over half my life to alcohol and showing me the "life" I could of had if I was normal. Now literally everyone hates me (not an over exaggeration) now I am "myself" so I treat everyone as an enemy, the sight, sound and smell of a NT makes me rage. I am big, strong and as I do not feel anything I want to go on a NT purge and reshape this world.

I know it is bitterness but I am angry

Anyone else feel like this? 

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  • The best way to look at is anger will only make you numb. You need to learn how to feel as much as you can. If you actually look at who you are you have a lot to be happy about.

    I suppose I am a bit resentful of having to live in a society (that does not really employ me) I have given so much with good intention to only to be undermined by these people yes. To put it in context. I have had employers deliberately not pay me, not pay my taxes or National insurance (which I have had HMRC take them up on). I get people hurling abuse at me on the bus, I have been assualted twice in the last year. It’s all a kind of slavery yes, we are the creative ones with the talents being milked. My brother is a neurotypical, he is an *** materialistic agressive inconsiderate. He projects confidence but really he is miserable. Distance yourself from these people.

    What do you have to get revenge about, the thing neurotypicals most want they will never have. This is what makes me laugh. Laughing is healthy.

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  • The best way to look at is anger will only make you numb. You need to learn how to feel as much as you can. If you actually look at who you are you have a lot to be happy about.

    I suppose I am a bit resentful of having to live in a society (that does not really employ me) I have given so much with good intention to only to be undermined by these people yes. To put it in context. I have had employers deliberately not pay me, not pay my taxes or National insurance (which I have had HMRC take them up on). I get people hurling abuse at me on the bus, I have been assualted twice in the last year. It’s all a kind of slavery yes, we are the creative ones with the talents being milked. My brother is a neurotypical, he is an *** materialistic agressive inconsiderate. He projects confidence but really he is miserable. Distance yourself from these people.

    What do you have to get revenge about, the thing neurotypicals most want they will never have. This is what makes me laugh. Laughing is healthy.

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