So I'm trying desperately not to succumb to my flight response currently and stay on the forum. Thank you mods for your understanding and patience.
It's quite big for me, as last year it was part of the reason for quitting my last job, (along with working to complete exhaustion). We had a work Discord server which was 'the office', but my anxiety started spiralling, I started deleting my posts, removing responses, profile pics. In the end I had removed myself from 4 years of communications and gotten everyone worried. They tried to help but at I didn't know what was happening to me, I couldn't stop till I removed myself from the server entirely, unfriended everyone and quit. (I was hitting the wall that led me to discover I'm autistic).
And I'm actually worse in real life when I've tried to have counselling, so I don't have a lot of options to stop the spiralling and improve.
I've had some good advice on how to do this from people here and lovely support, so I will try my best to overcome my reactions and fear as I know it's not good for me and it's only getting worse.
Thank you for your patience everyone, I'm not very good at this.
