Recieving counselling

I was just wanting to ask advice from people who have recieved counselling/therapy etc. 
How do you know if you might have hit a wall with it and if it's worth doing anymore?

For background, I've had 4 session with a counsellor since October, whom I got on her waiting list just before I decided to go ahead with my ASD assessment. Before I started I told her about being in the middle of being assessed so she knew my situation from that I had previously stated.

My last appointment with her, I told her I had been confirmed with ASD, and she got very concerned I don't over research and fall into developing 'new traits' just because I read about them.  I understand her concern as I had heard about some people getting post-diagnosis skills loss, but I don't have time for any of that and am a little scared of unmasking anyway as I saw what I was when I did the assessment and I don't think anyone wants me to be that.

I've booked an appointment with her for after christmas as I was too busy before, but now I don't know what to say next time? She asked some questions to satisfy herself at the start about why I thought I was autistic, but I've been more dealing with the other baggage like childhood bullying and work anxiety, and not so much the ASD problems I face.

Now I don't know if I should hide that side as I don't think she wants to know as she's concerned about me throwing everything away I think? Is this what it's like talking to people? Trying to open up was so hard, now it feels it's better to seal it all away again? Or is this something that has to be worked through?

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  • Thank you everyone, I'm going to reply to each as I appreciate the time taken to help me with understanding this and to hear the different views. As I mentioned the whole experience of actually talking about issues instead of just having these conversations in my own head, is fairly new to me, so getting everyone's different perspectives is helping give me context to understand therapy and how to use it to help and not hinder. So thanks everyone!

    (And it's helping me out of my post-deleting spiral I sometimes get in).

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  • Thank you everyone, I'm going to reply to each as I appreciate the time taken to help me with understanding this and to hear the different views. As I mentioned the whole experience of actually talking about issues instead of just having these conversations in my own head, is fairly new to me, so getting everyone's different perspectives is helping give me context to understand therapy and how to use it to help and not hinder. So thanks everyone!

    (And it's helping me out of my post-deleting spiral I sometimes get in).

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