Amnesia (NSFW)

When I was 14, an adult tried to kill me. I took double head stamps for a very long period of time.I should be dead. My arm broke in the assualt.

I'm 48 now and have what I think is amneisa. My mother said I was never the same after the event.

I tried to watch my favourtie films and couldn't remember the scenes. It was like i was watching them for the first time.

I'm undiagnosed with autism and ADHD. Teachers at my school told my mother to get me tested.but she didn't want to believe it, so did'nt.

I have a diverticular disease that causes me contant pain. I also have Barrett's oesophagus.

The combination of all these ailments is very debilitating. It's hard to eat.  I think I had a nervous breakdown a few years ago. I didn't recover.

I'm just taking it day by day.

When I see my GP he keeps asking if I have had suicidal thoughts.

It must have been from posts here that I don't remember and deleted.

I don't want to bother anyone. I just want to be alone. I have to sleep upright or the acid will burn my throat. I'm sorry for the thread. 

I don't need anything. I just want to be alone. The lady that did my colonoscopy said she has only seen that severity in people in their 90s. She said they will eventually have to remove a section of it. The GPs I've seen have said the polyps are nothing to worry about and everyone has them. 

I'm looking after my disabled mother. I live in her house atm. We have a few cats. We love cats.

I need to get place to stay. but I have no children so the council refused to add me to the waiting list.

As you can see. I'm in a lot of trouble.I can't focus.

I'm disabled, but it isn't diagnosed.

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  • Hi, I'm sorry to hear of your situation. 

    I tend to forget films I watched some years ago, and books I've read too, so I can watch them again and not remember things until they happen - I'm not sure if that's related to autism. But if you still can't remember any of the scenes when you watch a favourite movie, perhaps you should mention this to your doctor so you can get some tests done.

    Diverticular disease sounds awful. Have you been given any advice how to manage it? There is some guidance on the NHS website:

    https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/diverticular-disease-and-diverticulitis/

    I believe that your GP has to ask if you have suicidal thoughts if you appear depressed as that's part of their duty of care. They need to know how you feel so that they can provide the correct treatment.

    Sleeping upright is not good for you, so I would suggest you also ask your doctor about how to prevent the acid reflux. 

    I hope things improve for you soon.

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  • Hi, I'm sorry to hear of your situation. 

    I tend to forget films I watched some years ago, and books I've read too, so I can watch them again and not remember things until they happen - I'm not sure if that's related to autism. But if you still can't remember any of the scenes when you watch a favourite movie, perhaps you should mention this to your doctor so you can get some tests done.

    Diverticular disease sounds awful. Have you been given any advice how to manage it? There is some guidance on the NHS website:

    https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/diverticular-disease-and-diverticulitis/

    I believe that your GP has to ask if you have suicidal thoughts if you appear depressed as that's part of their duty of care. They need to know how you feel so that they can provide the correct treatment.

    Sleeping upright is not good for you, so I would suggest you also ask your doctor about how to prevent the acid reflux. 

    I hope things improve for you soon.

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