Amnesia (NSFW)

Thanks for the replies.

My mind jumps around like a Mexican jumping bean. I can't focus on anything properly. There was another incident at school. A kid thought it would be funny to pick me up awhile I was naked when we were changing in PE and body slam me on a concrete floor. I hit it head first. The teacher said I couldn't remember my name and I vomited all the way to the hospital. I was pale as a ghost. I got picked on for my autism at school by pupils and teachers. I've had two head injuries. 

My GP has perscribed pregabalin for my anxiety and omeprazole to stop my constant vomiting from the Barrett's oesophagus and my hernia . It has worked, but I sometimes vomit if I eat something acidic or when I cycle to the shops for food. It was bad yesterday. He said it was the combo of all my ailments that is draining me.

The hosptial said there is nothing they can do with my ailments and I have to learn to live with them (until my weak colon walls rupture). 

The reason why I didn't go through with the autism and ADHD diagnosis was because I was in too much pain at the time. 

I can't see how it will help me with getting accommodation. I dread the thought of being homeless, but that's where I'm heading.

Hello, I'm pleased that you have cats and get some pleasure from them.

You sound tired and worn out, quite understandably. I think you need some support.

When talking to the GP ask for the main points to be written down. Then you can make sure you understand and can review later, if you forget.

Make sure your conclusions are correct, double check the facts. My certainty over things have not served me well, as I was wrong.

Hi, I'm sorry to hear of your situation. 

I tend to forget films I watched some years ago, and books I've read too, so I can watch them again and not remember things until they happen - I'm not sure if that's related to autism. But if you still can't remember any of the scenes when you watch a favourite movie, perhaps you should mention this to your doctor so you can get some tests done.

Diverticular disease sounds awful. Have you been given any advice how to manage it? There is some guidance on the NHS website:

https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/diverticular-disease-and-diverticulitis/

I believe that your GP has to ask if you have suicidal thoughts if you appear depressed as that's part of their duty of care. They need to know how you feel so that they can provide the correct treatment.

Sleeping upright is not good for you, so I would suggest you also ask your doctor about how to prevent the acid reflux. 

I hope things improve for you soon.

NAS71232 said:

I don't want a colonoscopy bag. It's obvious what I have to do.

What is it about the colonoscopy that you don't want? 

It can be helpful to identify the fear that is causing you to resist a test that could lead to a treatment to improve your life.

I had one at the start of the year but I was under general anesthesia for it so there was no pain / discomfort and the only annoyance was the laxative and 24 hour prep beforehand.

My thoughts are that it is obvious you should have the procedure so you are armed with the knowledge to help decide the next treatments.

NAS71232 said:

I don't want surgery. I don't want a colonoscopy bag.

I assume you are refering to a stoma bag here. If this can remove a lot of pain and discomfort in life then is it not worth it?

Yes it isn't the nicest of things to have but beats being in pain. I have read that with some sensible changes then it makes it much easier to live with.

Thank you,

They did start the process of autism diagnosis. but I couldn't go through with it. I know that I'm dying. There is something in my left quadrant that feels like it's going to explode. I have pain in my right quadrant too, but not as much as my left. I have to lay down on my side to ease it for hours. It gets worse after I try to eat. The fatigue from the diverticular disease is extreme. I feel like I have a hangover all the time. I've read that it is because my body is constantly trying to correct my swollen, inflamed colon.

My mother has carers twice a day, so she will be is ok. I think my GP said I'm due for another colonoscopy next year. 

I don't want surgery. I don't want a colonoscopy bag. It's obvious what I have to do. I don't have kids or a wife, so harm done. I'd rather not.

Maybe I'll last a few more years. I think I can apply for help with rent for a small flat. I would rather have a council property, so I don''t have the anxiety of being kicked out. I would love to have a small garden for my plants. I have limited capability for work and work-related activity.

I think you should ask for an appointment with a neurologist who can help find out the lasting effects of the attack you suffered.

Diverticulitis is extremely painfull and exhausting, you may not be able to absorb nutrients from your food properly, so you need another consultation with those doctors.

And finally I think you need to seek a diagnosis for autisim and ADHD.

If your GP's are unwilling to do any of this then I think you should change your GP, you are quite within your rights to do so.

I think you could do worse than get in touch with the CAB and get them to look at your housing, benefits and help looking after your Mother.