My job is an Autistic nightmare, bright lights, loud office environment, dragged from one task to the next.
Now the operations team has moved to our office it means all the drivers are in and out throughout the day.
I live a life of burn out 24/7, which doesn't feel like a life worth living anymore.
I have spoken about my autism, I even opened up to a manager about the mental health issues I've been having with it.
As expected it's the hollow support "Do what you need to do". Yet not willing to actually make any changes. Best I get offered is permission to put both headphones in, but site manager doesn't want both in.
I've tried applying for other jobs, but either get nothing back or I struggle in interviews (even when I do my best).
I've reached out for help with family and either they can't or get told to just apply online. Meanwhile everyone else gets help getting their foot in the door.
I've been in tears many times, frustrated that I can't just quit my job, even though I know how liberating it will be. That's when the darkness comes saying the only other option is......