Why couldn't I have just been made normal?

Anybody else just really effing angry? Like, I never asked for this. I hate it. Autism and ADHD together? Oh, lucky me... not. 

I'm recently diagnosed and up until this point, I've spent years thinking I struggled with my mental health and that I could try therapies and medication to treat it and make myself better. To find out that the majority of this is actually Autism and ADHD and there's not a damn thing I can do to make them go away, is honestly just soul-destroying. I hate it. I hate what it's made me. It's the absolute worst thing aout me and it's ruining my life. 

Anybody else just wish they could have been made normal?

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  • I 1000% understand and feel the exact same way. I was diagnosed about 5ish years ago now and I still hold a lot of anger inside that im not sure I'll ever get past. It's a lot easier said than done accepting something you despise knowing you can never be rid of it or change anything about it. I think being diagnosed as a adult comes with its own challenges aswell because as you said mental health comes into play massively and we know now these things probably could've been prevented or at the very least have had a lesser role should we have been diagnosed earlier in life. 

  • ‘Despise’ is a strong word. 

    Perhaps the attitudes of society have lead you to believe that of autism, but many autistic people consider their autism to be an integral part of who they are as human beings rather than something to be despised.

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