Suicide post

I'm so sorry that you're feeling this way - and, to make matters worse, that the forum's standard template message (advising that your post was deemed "abusive") has caused upset.

Please know that the opposite actually applies: I, along with another person (two reports moves a post to the moderation queue), reported your post only because I am concerned for your well-being and supportive of your needs. Please accept my apologies for the unintended negative consequence.

Besides using the report tool to flag abusive content, the community rules here also encourage us to report posts that are worrying or concerning.

Reporting such posts ensures they're seen by the moderation team, who can then help by responding with appropriate support information - which I see they've now done.

Over time, many members here have been caused undue upset by this forum's standard templates for alerts / notifications and emails. In July, I emailed the moderation team to advise how they can change the wording, including to remove any references to "abuse". I'm sorry to hear that this hasn't happened yet.

Bunny thank you for your honesty, it was a real hurt moment to receive the message, I have over the years just battled along with my diagnosis, for 30 years i suffered it without a label, and coped with self hating so I thought now that I had a label for my diagnosis I will just continue, recognize my symptoms and manage my environment, but I think recognising ones symptoms and managing the environment is often difficult to do, especially when you have no control of the environment, so over the 10 years, my life has shrunk, did not have children as I couldn't cope with functioning with society, limited my career as I couldn't cope with people interaction, just simply cut away all aspirations to the point where I look back and think what a waste of life and the future is still long, I'm unbelievably tired that would it be so wrong if I don't do anything for 5 years, would I continue regretting a wasted life, I hate to complain, I try to show gratitude and was writing three things that I am grateful for. It was usually my cats returned home, brushed my teeth and I got changed, they were mainly the same form of gratitudes and it just makes me sad. I know I am more fortunate than others as my diagnosis came along when I was 30, after I had completed my degrees and that I should feel very grateful that I didnt have a label attached to me when I was younger, as I believe this would have hindered my education, yet having the label hasn't helped, its just bought to the surface I am a square peg trying to fit in a round hole, but this square peg doesn't want to fit in a round hole anymore, and I don't want to chip the corners of my square to fit in, as thats where I differ, with values, honestly and sincerity and its these ingredients that I like about myself, so where do people like me go, many just exit as there isn't a place for us to belong and be useful to society, is it okay to just simply exist and be useful to ourself to simply function, to reduce our aspiration and talented gifts to simply stay alive and function, perhaps that's my purpose and nothing else, and its this that makes me despair. 

Bunny thank you for your honesty, it was a real hurt moment to receive the message, I have over the years just battled along with my diagnosis, for 30 years i suffered it without a label, and coped with self hating so I thought now that I had a label for my diagnosis I will just continue, recognize my symptoms and manage my environment, but I think recognising ones symptoms and managing the environment is often difficult to do, especially when you have no control of the environment, so over the 10 years, my life has shrunk, did not have children as I couldn't cope with functioning with society, limited my career as I couldn't cope with people interaction, just simply cut away all aspirations to the point where I look back and think what a waste of life and the future is still long, I'm unbelievably tired that would it be so wrong if I don't do anything for 5 years, would I continue regretting a wasted life, I hate to complain, I try to show gratitude and was writing three things that I am grateful for. It was usually my cats returned home, brushed my teeth and I got changed, they were mainly the same form of gratitudes and it just makes me sad. I know I am more fortunate than others as my diagnosis came along when I was 30, after I had completed my degrees and that I should feel very grateful that I didnt have a label attached to me when I was younger, as I believe this would have hindered my education, yet having the label hasn't helped, its just bought to the surface I am a square peg trying to fit in a round hole, but this square peg doesn't want to fit in a round hole anymore, and I don't want to chip the corners of my square to fit in, as thats where I differ, with values, honestly and sincerity and its these ingredients that I like about myself, so where do people like me go, many just exit as there isn't a place for us to belong and be useful to society, is it okay to just simply exist and be useful to ourself to simply function, to reduce our aspiration and talented gifts to simply stay alive and function, perhaps that's my purpose and nothing else, and its this that makes me despair.