My girlfriend, my best friend, my everything, angrily broke up with me last night. Spent half of the night on a suicide prevention helpline and this whole morning crying my eyes out.
We were just texting and laughing when she suddenly began making demands. This was two days after she, to my face, made a lot of promises to me. These demands escalated to 'If you want to even stay friends, don't message me until December' and she never answered why or repeated attempts at clarification.
When I pointed out she made promises, she got extremely angry and said 'If you feel we need to have a call to resolve this, this is over'
After she made the December demand, I stated that this won't work for me. I set my own boundaries: keep her promises. She then angrily broke it off.
It just proves to me that I'm a horrible, horrible person who will never be in a relationship and who will keep getting rejected for the rest of his life. I wish I had a terminal illness instead of autism and ADHD. I just want to close my eyes and just never wake up again.
