30yrs of mess to untangle

Hi,

Currently at 46yo being assessed for neurodiversity.

I've 32 years of complicated mental health history and at no point did anyone think to check for neurodiversity until now.

Now that they are, I'm realising that autism is potentially the elusive explanation for how the last 32 years have played out and I'm struggling to contain intense distress over everything that could have been avoided if they'd figured this out before.

I should clarify that I've not completed the autism assessment process yet but it's been presented to me more as a 'lets get a comprehensive understanding of your autistic traits' than there being any doubt that I am Autistic.

Is there anyone that has been through similar?

Parents
  • I was diagnosed just over 3 months ago age 50. The last couple of years have been a struggle for me in terms of really trying to figure myself out. A lot of ups and downs and thought that a diagnosis would give me relief. I have had a tough 3 months and not had the capacity to be present on here that much but I have settled down and feel better about it all now. I am not cross for things not being picked up earlier but I am rather cross about the information available back then. I don’t blame my parents as I hid things so well and my mum did not notice things as she was and is very similar to me. I think the more time that has passed the more comfortable I feel about who I am and the less apologetic I have become in accepting myself. 
    Hang in there and I’m happy that you’re potentially discovering who you are. 

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  • I was diagnosed just over 3 months ago age 50. The last couple of years have been a struggle for me in terms of really trying to figure myself out. A lot of ups and downs and thought that a diagnosis would give me relief. I have had a tough 3 months and not had the capacity to be present on here that much but I have settled down and feel better about it all now. I am not cross for things not being picked up earlier but I am rather cross about the information available back then. I don’t blame my parents as I hid things so well and my mum did not notice things as she was and is very similar to me. I think the more time that has passed the more comfortable I feel about who I am and the less apologetic I have become in accepting myself. 
    Hang in there and I’m happy that you’re potentially discovering who you are. 

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