Having an anxiety filled day!!!!

I've been having a bad day mentally as I've had so many things dumped on me all at once and I don't know what to do. Here's a small layout of what's been on my mind:-

I've just been to the Dentist recently and I've hated going to the dentist for years since due to an incident that happened many years ago. Anyways, I was already scared enough, I even ended up having a panic attack while in there, it was absolutely mortifying. Luckily the dentist who saw me seemed to be understanding... but unfortunately what I feared would happen is now happening. I've been that I now have to get a filling done and it needs to happen or risk of infection. But here's the problem... I have a crippling Phobia of Needles and that's part of the procedure. I'm actually shaking just thinking about it FearfulCold sweatConfounded

If that's not made me anxious and stressed enough, a couple of days ago my mum comes to me to let me know about a job vacancy that she found which she said was perfect for me and that I should apply. Now she's wasn't wrong as it does sound like the perfect job in regards to my previous experience and skill set... it's just that there's one thing that has me in knots. In a previous post, I mentioned how I due to past terrible experiences I've had with job interviews, I have now developed a trauma and fear of job interviews all together. That’s the only thing I have an issue about this topic. Even though I've discussed it with my job coach who is understanding about it, I'm still extremely anxious about Even sending in an email over it. And I'm not exaggerating, the fear is so bad that I've been having stress induced nightmares about... I'm actually hyperventilating just thinking about it FearfulCold sweatNauseated faceface vomiting

So these things have been plaguing my mind today and honestly it's put me in not a good place mentally. I've been trying to get my off it by watching and listening to my favourite funny stuff which is only half working. But it doesn't change the fact that i need to get these two things done. I've been masking in front of parents, just trying to carry on like everything's okay but honestly... having these two things on my mind is making me feel ill. 

Sorry if I've went on and on, it's just I felt like I needed to get this off my chest as I don't feel like i can talk to my parents about it. While they know about my needle Phobia and are trying to help me as much they can with that... in regards to my Phobia of the possibility of job interview, I don’t think they would understand as they're attitude towards stuff like that is all 'ACT CONFIDENT, THINK POSITIVE, JUST GET ON WITH IT'... which is easier said than done.

it's okay if there's no advice as I was just wanting to vent out my feelings somewhere in the hopes that maybe it might make me feel a little better getting it all out

Anyways, thank you for listening 

  • I share your phobia of needles. You can ask for numbing gel prior to the injection which should help somewhat. They regularly use it for kids. I'm on an anxiety ridden path at the moment too, after lots of test featuring cannulae's I am now awaiting heart surgery. Added to the needle phobia I am also extremely unhappy in hospitals so it's going to be a very difficult period for me to navigated Confused

  • Wondering myself why life can’t just stop throwing everything at me at once sometimes. These problems stop feeling like a single issue and seem to come as a package deal you don’t want. The thing with panic is that you are scared of being scared, the feelings that come with panic are usually pretty extreme, the dread, the doom or “Oh my god I am having a heart attack” and it’s those experiences that leave us petrified and traumatised just from the emotional rollercoaster of the panic attack itself. It’s not uncommon for sufferers of panic attacks to associate places, items, people with extreme fear if any one of these was present during the panic episode. Some people seem to be more susceptible to over thinking and anxiety than others. I wish I was one of those who went with the flow, seems like a real gift if you ask me. 

  • Sorry your having a tough day I am too it’s been too over stimulating but ive been working on music to try counter act it spoiler it didn’t work 90% of the time 

    I won’t go on about my self too much but atm im looking to get my own flat to make my family relationships easier whilst we wait for separate diagnosis and help that comes with that(adhd AND autism for me and my son and possibly even my partner) i have new managers at work and we don’t know who and over all 4 people leave this week one who’s been on sick and still is and also setting up my music buisness as a sole trader.

  • I can relate. I developed a fobia for filling up forms due to bad past experiences. I read somewhere that reading things you are already familiar with can be relaxing for autistic people. It is for me (or re-watching stuff I liked).

    No advice for the needles though. I go to doctors quite depressed normally, and hardly anything will be of neither joy nor distress.

    Maybe the awareness that they do it everyday can be reassuring.

  • If you can't take the needles at the dentist, you could ask if they offer nitrus oxide instead.

    It has fallen out of common use but there is always a chance either they or someone they work with uses this still.

    It's a long shot I realise.