I'm between years at university, and I have a job in my university city. The job suits me quite well - it's interesting work, I get on well with my colleagues, it pays me enough to live comfortably and I can walk there from my house in 25 minutes. I was very happy to be offered it and it's generally going quite well.
University has often felt like quite a lonely place, especially after someone I believed saw me as (and I could see as) a close friend made a series of choices that completely destroyed my trust in them (sorry, I know this is a very vague description... I don't really want to go into much more depth, partly because of the normal privacy precautions when posting on a public forum, and party because it triggered probably the worst period of mental health I have experienced, which I have unpacked in great detail with the assistance of others, and I really just want to move on from it now).
But now I'm here for work outside the usual term-times, the loneliness has increased another level. It often feels like all I do is get up in the morning, go to work, go home, and repeat the next day. Often the only people I speak to in a day are a few colleagues and perhaps my flatmate, or a bus driver
I desperately want to meet other people, but - and I know how stupid this sounds to some people - I have no idea how. At least, not in a way that feels safe. I think some part of me fears a repeat of my past experience - meeting people who I think I can trust, but actually suddenly and abruptly discover I can't (and then the emotional experience of processing that stretching over months and being excruciatingly painful).
Lots of advice that I've seen is along the lines of "try joining local groups for your interests", and honestly I'd quite like to, but the idea feels completely overwhelming. Where do I find these places? How do I make sure they are somewhere I will be able to fit in and where people will welcome me? What sort of groups are likely to attract people of my age, and my sort of personality, rather than people who just happen to like the same things as me but are otherwise completely different people, at completely different stages of their life? (Nothing at all against those people, by the way, it's just that I know I'll struggle to empathise with them).
More broadly... where on earth are the people like me?!?
If anyone has helpful experiences/advice relating to this sort of situation, I will be very grateful - it's difficult to escape the sense of being completely alone in this.
