Therapy failing

So I have now got official diagnoses of autism, CPTSD and EUPD. Been so badly bullied growing up and got harassed in the workplace so now my mental health is just too weak for everyday life. I’ve tried all sorts of private therapies but everyone has said they just can’t help me and drop me like a ton of bricks. I am aware autism is a different way of thinking but is autism the reason why I won’t recover and therapy isn’t working for me? NHS services only seem to be for short term care so that’s probably out the option too. I keep getting these “voices” in my head nagging me to punish myself and I’m not worthy due to what others have said and all I get told is to ignore the voices etc which is easier said than done for me personally. I am also unable to move on from all the trauma and bullying etc and everything is just racing a billion to the dozen and I can’t seem to move on. Am I doing something wrong? Does anyone have any advice or have been in my position at all?

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  • So I might just be repeating a spiel you’ve already gotten from one of your therapists, but maybe you could try thought stopping? The idea is when you have a bad thought, you don’t just smack it away. You take the thought, think of how it is wrong or how it is making you feel, then think of something positive.

    Ex. Several months ago I kept having the intrusive thought of something to the effect of “I can’t handle anything,” so I then followed it up with “But I can try.” It took a lot of effort and care to keep with that. Eventually I got to the point where I stopped having that thought. And now I can’t even remember exactly what the thought was lol.

    I don’t think it’s for everyone, and I wasn’t sure about it myself, but it ended up working out in my case. So maybe it’s worth a try if you haven’t already?

    I hope that helps. I’m really sorry therapy hasn’t been working out well for you so far.

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  • So I might just be repeating a spiel you’ve already gotten from one of your therapists, but maybe you could try thought stopping? The idea is when you have a bad thought, you don’t just smack it away. You take the thought, think of how it is wrong or how it is making you feel, then think of something positive.

    Ex. Several months ago I kept having the intrusive thought of something to the effect of “I can’t handle anything,” so I then followed it up with “But I can try.” It took a lot of effort and care to keep with that. Eventually I got to the point where I stopped having that thought. And now I can’t even remember exactly what the thought was lol.

    I don’t think it’s for everyone, and I wasn’t sure about it myself, but it ended up working out in my case. So maybe it’s worth a try if you haven’t already?

    I hope that helps. I’m really sorry therapy hasn’t been working out well for you so far.

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  • Thanks for the advice. I think you might have actually mentioned this in the past to me on one of my other posts, if so I do apologise for repeating myself and yourself. I should have a look through my previous posts again.

    When you said that it actually reminded me of playing of Princess Peach showtime, where she comes across the cute little species (called theets) who have lost confidence or are panicking and Peach uses her power from her ally Stella to help the theets regain their power and confidence. So if a theet is saying she has no ingredients to bake with, Peach with use her sparkle power so the theet will say she can just get more ingredients. 

    I will try this, just need to feel ok with myself