Depression

I'm sorry you're struggling so much lovely and I get completely how you feel as someone who doesn't have a job and is also waiting on therapy to help myself move forward. I'm glad you're managing to still do things you enjoy - that's a major positive and I'm proud of you for trying to do things like that. It's also so good that you're trying therapy and open to it - hopefully that will help and the wait won't be too long. It sounds like you're being too hard on yourself from my perspective - you deserve to be kind to yourself as you're doing your best. Take every day as it comes and try to do something good for yourself such as watching your animes and listening to music - that may also help when your head is loud. Do you have people you regularly talk to, especially about your interests as that might help? Otherwise it might be good to try different things and see what works for you as everyone is different. 

some things I might suggest are:

- if you feel physically capable, take.a short walk especially if there's somewhere scenic near you to sit 

- set only one or two goals of the day to complete (can be small things like brushing your teeth or making a coffee in the morning) but it might help you acknowledge your  accomplishments and feel better?

- maybe try to draw something new?

- 5 senses technique is also often beneficial when you feel overwhelmed 

- journalling is a good way of getting thoughts out. I have even in the past written my thoughts on pieces of paper, scrunching them up and thrown them away in a symbolic way of letting them go?

- maybe make a bucket list of things you want to do? having long-term goals can be helpful for some people  instead of short-term especially when they're fun (such as places you want to go and things you want to do)

Ultimately, I hope you know you are worth so much just as you are, and that there aren't things you need to achieve/do to feel worthy. You are just for existing. There isn't just one way of doing life and everyone can go at their own pace - it's a marathon, not a sprint! It's so easy to get stuck in these kind of ruts (I know I have many times) and it's important to be gentle, patient and kind to yourself. I hope things get better for you and if you ever want to talk I'm only a message away.

Wishing you the best <3

I'm sorry you're struggling so much lovely and I get completely how you feel as someone who doesn't have a job and is also waiting on therapy to help myself move forward. I'm glad you're managing to still do things you enjoy - that's a major positive and I'm proud of you for trying to do things like that. It's also so good that you're trying therapy and open to it - hopefully that will help and the wait won't be too long. It sounds like you're being too hard on yourself from my perspective - you deserve to be kind to yourself as you're doing your best. Take every day as it comes and try to do something good for yourself such as watching your animes and listening to music - that may also help when your head is loud. Do you have people you regularly talk to, especially about your interests as that might help? Otherwise it might be good to try different things and see what works for you as everyone is different. 

some things I might suggest are:

- if you feel physically capable, take.a short walk especially if there's somewhere scenic near you to sit 

- set only one or two goals of the day to complete (can be small things like brushing your teeth or making a coffee in the morning) but it might help you acknowledge your  accomplishments and feel better?

- maybe try to draw something new?

- 5 senses technique is also often beneficial when you feel overwhelmed 

- journalling is a good way of getting thoughts out. I have even in the past written my thoughts on pieces of paper, scrunching them up and thrown them away in a symbolic way of letting them go?

- maybe make a bucket list of things you want to do? having long-term goals can be helpful for some people  instead of short-term especially when they're fun (such as places you want to go and things you want to do)

Ultimately, I hope you know you are worth so much just as you are, and that there aren't things you need to achieve/do to feel worthy. You are just for existing. There isn't just one way of doing life and everyone can go at their own pace - it's a marathon, not a sprint! It's so easy to get stuck in these kind of ruts (I know I have many times) and it's important to be gentle, patient and kind to yourself. I hope things get better for you and if you ever want to talk I'm only a message away.

Wishing you the best <3

1. I’m sorry to hear you are also struggling. Thank you so much for the reminders, I needed to hear that. I am definitely too hard on myself, but it’s difficult not to be when everyone else is doing so much better than me and I’m comparing myself to them. My boyfriend has the same interests as me, I kind of adopted his hobbies so we can talk about anime and gaming together. One of my friends likes to game but anime is my favourite and a big escape from reality for me. I did start drawing something new the other day and gave up half way through and now I will probably never go back to finishing it lol. I should probably start journaling again, it’s a good way of getting the thoughts out of my head onto paper. I definitely do not feel worthy and haven’t for a very long time. I was bullied and excluded in school all my life really, so it’s difficult to have any sense of self-worth even now I finished school years ago. It’s like now the bully is my own head. Thank you, you can also message me any time. I wish you the best too <3