I am literally just wasting my life away. I try and make changes in my life and then can’t cope and quit everything. All I want to do is isolate myself indoors and never see anyone again. I just quit my volunteering because I couldn’t cope with the stress, anxiety, depression and pain from my pain conditions. I think there is no job out there for me. I had to give my puppy to my parents because I couldn’t cope with her anymore and was getting extreme suicidal thoughts. I feel lonely like no one understands me. I don’t see the point in life just to suffer everyday. I try to do hobbies and things I enjoy like anime, gaming, drawing and listening to music but nothing will shake away the feeling of guilt, shame and worthlessness. I can’t even start hobbies because I get stuck overthinking and overwhelmed and then can’t move (adhd paralysis). My head is always so loud and won’t shut up. I don’t know what to do anymore, I’m waiting for therapy but I don’t see a way forward.
