I've suffered with suicidal thoughts since I was a teenager I'm in my 50s now. Back then I belive I had pmdd as the thoughts Coincided with My cycle. However in my late teens I was diagnosed with eupd. In the end I asked my gp for a hormonal pill to stop my monthly cycles which helped a bit. However in my 20s I was diagnosed with bipolar. I'm on so much medication yet I'm still getting suicidal thoughts. I was also told by a health practitioner that he thought I had autism! I have asked my doctor what he thinks of my diagnoses and all he said was that he couldn't speculate. I seem to get triggered by stress and have awful melt downs and want to die. I just feel like there's no hope anymore and that nobody has any answers so I'm just left in the mental health system and they don't know what's wrong with me .
